Arrested

[kahlan]

Okay (this probably doesn't really go in relationships but not sure where else to post :$ but does go with my horrible recent track record of overloaded stress) so today was probably the single most humiliating experience in my life. I went to.court today regarding an old legal issue that I thought was over....it wasn't. I got handcuffed (first ever and I hope only experience despite one short stay in jail when ai was younger) led out and taken to the county jail where I had to go through the embarrassing intake (I'm a bit of a timid prude) then sat in a freezing cold intake cell for 4 hours on the verge of a full on panic attack. The only thing that got me through without a full break down was the desk sargeant who was genuinely kind to me and digging my nails into the back of my hand to distract me (I'm going to have some serious bruising tomorrow I think). Then I'm not only handcuffed but shackled to go back to court. I could feel everyone's eyes on me looking like I was some sort of horrible person. I finally get let go and not only had to call my evil mother to come get me because my car was all the way across town but had to make the embarrassing phone call to my boss about what happened. Its been a hell of a day and I really need a damb hug :'(

 

[sisu]

Awww, I'm sorry you had to go through all of that. What an awful day. But on a positive note, that issue is behind you now and you can move forward and never worry about it again. And once you have some distance from that awful day - you will have a crazy story to tell. :p

I've done some stupid stuff in my day - some of which I should now be 6 feet under ground for doing. Somehow and for some reason I survived my stupidity and now really laugh hard with my friends at all of the things we did back then. I'm sure I'm missing a few brain cells - but I always joke that its survival of the fittest with the brain cells. Only the weak ones die off which has actually made me smarter because all the stupid ones died. hahaha!!

 

[kahlan]

I love my girls at work! All day joking that I'm a big bada$$ jailbird now :p. If you don't laugh about it, well...

 

[anthony]

That must have been pretty scary.

 

[Promicarus]

I applaud you for sharing your true feelings here. It's all too easy, instinctive even, to just "shut them off", in order to get distance from them and not show your true self, in order to avoid being called "weak". But it's just the opposite. It takes strength to admit to overwhelming feelings. I've had my experiences with law-enforcement, as well-and it doesn't get any better on down the line, needless to say. So it may actually be better, in the long run, for you to have had-and admitted to yourself that you had, more importantly-the kind of desperately bad experience you did have. All the better to keep you focused on avoiding the possibility in the future.