Asking Employer For Accomodations

[theshadowoftheliving]

Where are you with communicating with your parts? Do you know how they might feel if you suddenly leave work? Is your therapist a trauma specialist?
Are you dependent solely on your income? Are others dependent on your income?

I'm struggling to communicate within myself. I know that. I also know that I want to keep working, for sure. My only thought in disclosing were to be able to work with HR to create the ability for me to stay and continue to do my work well. It sounds like maybe suffering as I have been would be the best idea.

And anyways, I need to work for income. My savings is abysmal. I wouldn't be able to live very long at all without my job.

I'll try to find the HR handbook and take a look at it; I'm sure it has a bunch of helpful info.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

Others have had more positive experiences and please don't suffer based on what I say only.
If you have a therapist and psychiatrist maybe you can discuss it with them first.
If you have an excellent rapport with your supervisor that is another good sign.
There are lots of variables to consider.

You deserve help and treatment.

Please don't make any hasty decisions and remember your health comes first.
If you are dissociating to the point you have no memory of a situation ... *sighs*
I am trying to be very careful with what I say. I am no professional. I don't even have the wisdom of the moderators and many of the other members. I only have my experience and it was not a positive one.

I also bring my own fears and perceptions which might not be %100 percent correct. Not totally wrong either by a long shot but everyone has their own experience.

I too depend solely on my income and I'm in debt so I understand. I could not afford to live on SSI and besides I enjoy working.
Like you I am also a very hard worker and ambitious. I moved up the ladder very quickly because of my efforts.
Give yourself a hearty pat on the back, it takes a lot to function as well as you sound like you are.

In the matter of being a few minutes late or being a little off at times.
Do you physically clock in? Is it okay to make the time up at the end of the day?
Everyone, even "normal" people run a little late and have off days.
You might be being much harder on yourself and seeing what is "normal" because we are human as glaring deficits on your part.

I never feel like I am working hard enough or doing a good enough job. I have risen high enough in the ranks where that thought process is hindering me more than helping because I second guess myself too much and confidence in one's work is essential once reaching a certain point in the ladder. I only mention this because it seems you are a real "go-getter" and you might need to work on this.
I really hope everything works out for you. You certainly deserve it.
I hope you keep us updated :hug:

 

[EveHarrington]

I think @Alice.in.Wonderland makes some good points!

How strict is your boss?

I've had jobs where I'd be reprimanded and written up for very minor offenses like being a few minutes late------and it's true, everyone has "off" days, so perhaps it's good to assess the job environment. I think to myself I'd never be able to work in a place like that again! But-----they treated us like toddlers and had no respect for us. Not a PTSD issue-------a disgusting employer issue!

 

[UnKnown-Self]

Thank you @EveHarrington

But I don't get the impression @theshadowoftheliving is in a hostile or toxic work environment. Though I think think that would make a great thread on its own.
I think she is dealing with her own issues and is afraid of messing up and wants to try and make sure she keeps her job because she likes it and at the same time take care of herself. If she is switching during work time with no memory of it, that is a problem.

By the way @theshadowoftheliving do you feel yourself "losing" time? Are you suddenly conscious of being somewhere else and don't remember how you got there? Is time flying by unaccounted for?
If not, you just could be seeing your contribution as so insignificant that you are unable to see/accept your excellent efforts.
If you are then I hope your therapist is aware. That would scare the heck out of me.

 

[theshadowoftheliving]

@Alice.in.Wonderland my work place is surprisingly kind, caring and loving. When I needed an afternoon a week off for therapy, I justvtold my supervisor that and it was no big deal. So, they know I see a therapist (but who doesn't). But, I don't think they have any idea about the PTSD.

And as far as losing time ... Yes. Sometimes. Sometimes I can backtrack and figure out what I missed. Sometimes I can't. That's why I'm thinking about telling HR; I don't know what I do sometimes or I can't remember what I did. I don't think I ever do anything weird, but it makes me nervous for certain.

 

[Enaila]

@DucatiGirl I haven't considered FMLA. I don't think I need or want it....

My therapist has told me she would write a doctor's excuse if I needed some time off for sick leave. At one point when work was getting way too stressful, she said I needed to take a mental health sick day or she would recommend a longer leave for me. I took the day, took time for myself, and learned I am a better employee when I take time to care for myself once in awhile. If you have sick leave, it is okay to use it once in awhile. That is what it is there for. At my work a doctor's excuse isn't needed if only a day or two..

 

[Mim28]

Question, for those whom have had experiences, good or bad, in this realm:

I've been feel...

Sorry I'm late to the game here on this one, but I have a fair bit of knowledge on this subject. If your company meets the government requirements for FMLA, you absolutely must apply. You do not need to necessarily disclose to HR your illness, but to their disability provider. Usually there is someone within HR who is responsible to manage your claim. You must protect yourself. Also, people may wonder why you are out or have to leave; whatever. This is your condition to manage and what matters is your health. As I type these words I'm in the same boat and its so easy to say these words to you and not take them myself. At any rate, I hope you have taken steps to protect yourself. Take care.