Attachment Issues

[Abstract]

I understand what you mean and I certainly agree that these things differ a lot from person to person. And it definitely isn't that that I meant but I can't figure out how to express what I did mean! :rolleyes:

 

[Pencil]

I send her an update every week or two.

Therapy has changed since e-mail! I think it must be the bane of therapists' existence. 'My' therapist is amazing - I'm not officially in therapy but she responds dutifully and sensitively to every pissy petulant email I send, and then regret.

 

[Pencil]

I actually don't think it's controversial either.

And I agree with you, fully. But I've noticed that it happens sometimes on this forum that someone would make a statement, such as 'The sun rises in the East', only to get responses like; 'blah blah IMHO', or 'NEVER, I don't like the East, just my 2 cents'. And I'm not trying to be horrible here, I just didn't want to defend an accepted view with references. You may remember that something similar happened on another thread. So, I'm being a coward and making 'Perhaps' statements.

 

[JustBe]

Therapy has changed since e-mail! .

Oh we don't correspond. I just send her pages of my Journal, kind of like if I had it in a notebook that I brought with me, only this way she has a chance to read it before we meet.

Last time we met I asked her if it was too much, my sending her my journal entries and she said it was really helpful so I guess I'll keep doing it for now.

 

[Pencil]

Oh we don't correspond.

MO, now I just love the therapist even more. She really responds to every single stupid mail I send her.

And it's great that yours reads yours before a session, and telling you it is helpful. I think a lot of people don't have this channel.

 

[JustBe]

Sounds like you've got an awesome Therapist. It's good to have someone you can count on.

 

[Pencil]

Sounds like you've got an awesome Therapist.

And you won't believe the amount of crap she takes from me. I've wondered whether she's a saint or heavily sedated as she does not bat an eyelid at any of my nonsense. She keeps saying 'I'm here, I'm not going away'. I wonder if she's not secretly planning on moving to another city. But she does get that one part of me wants to attach, but the other is terrified. And then I feel like an idiot.

 

[Springer80]

but I can't figure out how to express what I did mean! :rolleyes:

Get your crayons out????? :D

 

[Springer80]

Last nights 'Somatic Unfurl Map' is being drawn up as we speak....Interesting :O_o:

 

[Abstract]

crayons out?

Maybe! My last therapist used crayons and a sandtray actually and it was useful as I tend not to be able to talk. I must say Springer your creations are very moving. Do you think the new "you" is an integrated version of the trauma and the rest of you? In other words - it sounds like you have had some good therapy/treatment and have processes a lot of the trauma. ?

 

[Springer80]

Okay the first one. I spent ages wondering what the pins were that was holding this block in my belly. I wrote the list on the bottom left. I realized the list is essentially the qualities of love, I thought well I deserve love and the block moved up. That's it really. Afterwards I thought about the words total and absolute but to be honest I just want the 'I deserve' bit to hang around and settle in and pay attention to the belly block being in my chest.

I also had some thoughts on episodic memory problems etc which you can see in the top right of the first diagram but they came later and they aren't the most important thing in this.

 

[Springer80]

{drawing}....useful as I tend not to be able to talk. I must say Springer your creations are very moving. Do you think the new "you" is an integrated version of the trauma and the rest of you? In other words - it sounds like you have had some good therapy/treatment and have processes a lot of the trauma. ?

Hi, Drawing in a sand tray sounds like the perfect thing if your scared of what you might draw. I can' commit to writing/drawing in sketchbooks mostly. I draw on individual sheets and then file them! :rolleyes:

Anyway, thanks for your kind words about the work and yes I do think, or rather I feel this latest stage is the integration/dissolution of parts. Regarding good therapy the person I saw the most of was certainly good in their field and I respected them but I don't think it was tailored nor holistic trauma treatment. I did find one 20hr course of group therapy back in 2002/3 for sexual abuse which was helpful, I've been looking for help since 1999 though and it's only really since 2009/10 that I finally found the area (PTSD-DDNOS) that pertained to me and I've been therapist-less since then. I had a 6hr course of free CBT which I used to clear up the last of my addiction problems in 2011 and I went to see a trauma specialist for 5hrs last September who taught me this technique. So I don't know...Personally I don't consider that good enough. Anyway, OFF TOPIC!!

Anyways,...Attachment.