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macca it's really f*cking hot here. We don't have aircon, but we do have fans. We're moving the bed downstairs this weekend because the attic design of the house means the upstairs bedroom (all of upstairs) heats up like a damned oven.
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zaniara I think I'll get through the first part of labor at home, and then when things start speeding up a little, I'll ring in, let them know I'm coming and have the anesthetist waiting for when I land.
My psych said I don't want to interfere with standard routines, so if I go with an epidural as soon as I land, they can examine me without it being a problem.
I actually survived an internal swab with the midwife on Friday, wasn't sure if my waters had broken or if it was just my plug thinning out....turns out it was the latter.
But the point is I had no flashbacks or anything like that, and it didn't trigger me which is a HUGE step forward. Although having the CTG on me for 4 hours straight eventually had me feeling really antsy and snarly, so I eventually told them it had to come off because I couldn't handle it, and they took it straight off.
I think I'll get through this ok. I've been through worse shit, surely the physical effort of welcoming my little girl has got nothing on the bullshit that people used to do to me when I was small and unable to speak.
Now I can speak for myself, I have the support, and I'll be ok. A huge hug though, for the ladies who had PTSD or trauma, and didn't have the support I do, I know how you felt.