Bad Dream

[livergirl70]

Just had a dream of when my ex-husband drugged and raped me, haven't had this one for ages and it's not been as bad as that for over a year. I actually felt drugged when I woke up and my body hurt like it had just happened. It really scared the :poop: out of me. I sat shaking and crying then managed to get up and come downstairs for a cigarette. I know it's gonna take a lot for me to go back to sleep now as I'm scared the dream will come back.

I really hate this, I thought the dreams had pretty much stopped now and as I said I haven't felt the physical effects for over a year, I'm scared that this means I'm going back downhill.

 

[Reclusive]

It doesn't mean you're going downhill. These little things are just going to pop up from time to time, often triggered by a completely and totally unrelated stressor or trigger. I hope you were able to get back to sleep nightmare free. Just keep reminding yourself that you're safe now.

 

[livergirl70]

Thanks yeh managed a couple of hours and was nearly late dropping my car off at the garage lol

 

[Brontie]

This might not help coming from someone who copes with DID. But it’s like different parts of you, your mind, your body, your psyche, whatever, needs to heal too. And it will happen for each part of you when it happens.

What might be more helpful is getting your head around the reality that it is your mind and body’s way of coping and dealing and healing. It needn’t mean that you are slipping back into serious trauma.

It’s true I think that the healing process may hurt just as much if not more and last even longer than the traumatic event that caused it. This is why it is so very important to remind yourself that it is all a part of the healing process and that you are safe now. Remind yourself over and over of this fact.