Sufferer Been hiding for 17 years. housefire/ attempted murder & murder

[EveHarrington]

Welcome!

 

[just try!]

You just start.. start talking. I felt like I talked to my therapist for 8 years straight thru sessions, emails . Some he read I think, some he didnt. At this point, instead of talking to myself, I'm talking to him :-)

 

[MrMoonlight]

Just got back from my Psychologist and have been diagnosed with PTSD. He is suggesting EMDR. I wasted 17 years of my life...

 

[ladee]

You have not wasted anything... you were living life and doing what you were doing... none of it was wasted... hopefully you learned some good coping skills during that 17 years that will help you thru this.... And hope your T prepares you for EMDR.... I was not able to do it.. but I know it has helped so many... having a great T during this process is essential.....

 

[MrMoonlight]

ladee thank you for your guidance and understanding the last few weeks. This sits has such a great community.

Thats a good way to think about lost time. I need to catch myself when I start going down that particular road. Today has been a true rollercoaster ride emotionally between the relief of finally having a diagnosis (thank God)!...and having this diagnosis (oh God).

My fire trauma happened 34 years ago while my physical and emotional collapse happened 17 years ago. I recognize thought patterns consistent with 'seeing no future for yourself' well before 17 years ago. I'm wondering if I didn't have PTSD at the time or maybe I did but the symptoms were not yet fully expressed. As I type this I'm realizing the "not yet fully expressed" answer is likely the case...I just don't have the tools to yet to understand this stuff.

I start celexa tomorrow morning, hopefully that will help a little.

I am so excited to learn more about healthy coping skills. Just learning about the ones I currently use will be helpful. Truly I don't know why or how I'm still here. The stuff we all have been through from trauma to coping would destroy mortals. Guess we should all be proud to still be here. If only the old saying "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" is true we all stand 10 feet tall.

Thanks for listening..