Better Days

[betterdaysahead]

I have a dvo. With all that said though its just a peice of paper. Before I could get the law here it untelling what would happen in that amount of time. My child would be 2000 miles from me for the summer. No way of finding out if she is ok. No phone calls or nothing for a summer. I can imagine that will fill like a life time.

As far so the guns go. The police that investagated this was friends of the family. All guns were given back to him after he got out of the nut house so to speak.

One of the worst memories I have is that I rmember that he told me I wasnt going anywere. But to hell with him. I beg to call my boys just to tell them that mommy loved them so much. To tell them that they were everything to there mother. Not to be sad that mommy would always be with them. To have that denied was the worse filling. I thought to myself that my kids would never remember me.They would never know how much that there mommy loved them.

 

[EvolveGreyArea]

Hi betterdaysahead,

I'm sorry to hear about the situation which brought you to this point. My experience was similar to yours in that I was sexually assaulted by someone I knew and trusted. I also have some similar symptoms. I have often felt like I was dreaming or my life and traumatic event wasn't real. I've had out of body experiences where I literally felt detached from my body to the point where I actually imagined seeing myself sitting in the chair in front of me (I was in class at the time). This feeling can be extremely frightening and it led me to detach myself from my own body. I would look in the mirror and not recognize the person looking back at me. It's something I still struggle with. Just know that you're not alone in this and there are many others experiencing the same symptoms.

 

[betterdaysahead]

I noticed that your a year younger than me Evolvegrayarea.

Im so sorry to hear that your have similar symstoms and the experience was similar. I wouldn't wish this on anyone.