Better To Just Quit Therapy?

[Briellewannabe]

I'm not sure therapy is for me. I really want it to be - I want to be the person who can understand what I'm feeling and thinking and share it if that'd help, but I'm not. I've answered more "I don't knows" in my 8 months of therapy than I ever have in my life. I feel bad for my therapists, who probably are at a loss of how to go about helping me.

Sometimes therapy seems helpful. Some coping skills and techniques have worked for the anxiety, but nothing for the depression.

I think I'm going to stop seeing my EMDR therapist. We'd worked on the nightmares for over 8 sessions but didn't get anyway. She was polite and said it was because my defenses were up and we couldn't go that route - she easily could have said it's because I'm resistant. I'm not trying to be, truly, I just don't know how to stop it. So now she's been doing this processing positive emotions and cognitions, but I find this difficult, annoying, and boring to be honest. I feel like this route will never actually deal with the nightmares or other PTSD symptoms... I don't care about having a low self-esteem. I can deal with that.

My other therapist is so nice and sweet, and she's really trying to help. She's being supervised as she's not licensed yet, so I know she's somewhat limited, but she's always trying. I feel like I make her try too hard to push the session forward, as I'm not good at sharing unless I'm being asked questions. I can't seem to offer up information voluntarily. And I don't know if we're going anywhere or making progress. Things got bad not too long ago and she was great, didn't overreact, but now I don't know what to do.

Would it be better to just quit therapy if I don't know what I need or how to communicate well? I'm feeling unstable but i don't know how much they are helping me. I think dealing with this all is becoming too much, but I don't think I can go back to the way it was before, if trying to just ignore it. It's all out and I don't know what to do, but it's not getting better and at times is getting worse.

I'm not sure if this even makes any sense. I'm feeling so all over the place.

 

[Snowflakes]

@Briellewannabe The only person who can answer your question is you. What I think or anyone else thinks doesn't matter. You have to want to go, you have to want it to work, and you have to trust your therapist to be receptive to him or her.

What you write makes perfect sense to me. I truly wish you well. Take care.

 

[Llith]

I tried to quit my latest set of therapy 2-3 times because of this issue, however each time my therapist pointed out my reasons for leaving were also the reasons why I needed to stay.

I guess it's worth thinking about, it's taken me ages to get where I am now, and I think I only got to being this open because I told my therapist early on I wasn't sure it was working for me the way it was.

Also realise that although working on something may seem silly and boring to you, they may help you out in the long run. Maybe with more self esteem you would feel more comfortable opening up.

Idk. Maybe you need to find the right therapist for you, but it's best to stick with for the moment. It gets shit before it gets better and quiting when you have opened the box can do more damage than good.

I wish you luck and I hope you figure it out!!!

 

[Justmehere]

Have you talked to either of your therapists about how you are struggling with it and thinking of quitting? Have you asked them what is the treatment plan, and how the therapy will address your symptoms, and what's next?