Juso
MyPTSD Pro
Hey y'all.
(I know it probably was not the best idea to smoke cannabis knowing that I tend to dissociate a lot when I'm high. Just wanted to say that I'm aware of that and I have already reduced my cannabis intake.)
Anyways, yesterday I was pretty high because I hadn't smoked in a while, and I had an extremely uncomfortable and sickening flashback/body memory that was completely new to me and made me very afraid of being touched (I flinched at the comforting touch of my friend without being able to control or foresee my reactions). I also felt much, much younger.
I can't really write about more details (not ready yet), but I wanted to ask if anyone else has had "real" body memories/flashbacks when they were high on cannabis?
Because I have a hard time trusting myself - I feel like the psychoactive weed could have made me feel as if it was a real flashback when in reality, I just created a false memory (I've heard you are more prone to making false memories when you've smoked cannabis).
I cannot explain why without talking about the flashback, but I really need to know if I made this memory up, its important. There is the possibility I didn't make it up tho, many of my fears and behaviors growing up would make sense in retrospect. I don't know, I just really don't.
I do know that I've experienced the sudden appearance of once forgotten happy memories while I was high a couple of times, it was as if a gate had opened.
Thanks for reading ❤
(I know it probably was not the best idea to smoke cannabis knowing that I tend to dissociate a lot when I'm high. Just wanted to say that I'm aware of that and I have already reduced my cannabis intake.)
Anyways, yesterday I was pretty high because I hadn't smoked in a while, and I had an extremely uncomfortable and sickening flashback/body memory that was completely new to me and made me very afraid of being touched (I flinched at the comforting touch of my friend without being able to control or foresee my reactions). I also felt much, much younger.
I can't really write about more details (not ready yet), but I wanted to ask if anyone else has had "real" body memories/flashbacks when they were high on cannabis?
Because I have a hard time trusting myself - I feel like the psychoactive weed could have made me feel as if it was a real flashback when in reality, I just created a false memory (I've heard you are more prone to making false memories when you've smoked cannabis).
I cannot explain why without talking about the flashback, but I really need to know if I made this memory up, its important. There is the possibility I didn't make it up tho, many of my fears and behaviors growing up would make sense in retrospect. I don't know, I just really don't.
I do know that I've experienced the sudden appearance of once forgotten happy memories while I was high a couple of times, it was as if a gate had opened.
Thanks for reading ❤