I get it. Completely get it. And it sounds like you have set yourself up with a great place! But I get the scared of being alone thing. It is ten years later for me and those freaking stalker dudes are still renting space in my head. Slowly I am trying to redo my internal landscape. I am learning to give myself a break, realize that I have been through way more than the average person could even nightmare about, let alone live through.
You've got this.
Oh, and have you, by any chance, a therapist to work with? I can't recall if you wrote that or not. Support was a really important thing to me when I was able to leave. Isolation (which I leaned towards in those days) was not my friend, although it felt like it many times.
You've got this.
Oh, and have you, by any chance, a therapist to work with? I can't recall if you wrote that or not. Support was a really important thing to me when I was able to leave. Isolation (which I leaned towards in those days) was not my friend, although it felt like it many times.