OMG Terry good call not telling me about the freak out lol. I would have been stressing about it. But yeah it went really well, I'm so glad.
Yes hope, veiled is correct, that's why I went for the MRI, they want to see the PTSD in my brain. I kind of have mixed feelings about it, I mean I want them to be able to see the PTSD, because then that will confirm without a doubt that I am not imagining things or simply acting badly on purpose (something I stress over a lot). But on the other hand, I'm not really happy about learning that my brain is damaged or deformed or whatever. Damaged stomach is one thing, but damaged brain??? Bleah.
Anyways I am VERY lucky... didn't mention this to you guys yet, but while I was in hospital for my stomach problems, a psychiatrist who is here on sabbatical from Toronto for a year found out about me. He is training clinicians at the teaching hospital here, in how to treat PTSD, as that is his specialty! He only wants a couple of patients, as he's doing research and teaching most of the time. But he found out about me, and since he's worked with victims of school shootings and other recent gun violence in Toronto, he wants me for his patient!! He's supposed to be one of the best PTSD specialists in Canada. He visited me in the hospital, and he's kind of hot for an older guy lol. Anyways I was comfortable with him so I'm going to be his patient. I'm part of his research study, so I will get all my treatments covered too. This is really awesome, as previously I was going to have to wait another 6 months or so for a psychiatrist who isn't even a specialist in trauma. To make a long story short, he's the one who ordered the MRI. I start seeing him right after Christmas.
Anyways thanks guys, will keep you informed as I learn stuff.