TruthSeeker
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It’s a temp ban but they say it’s in part because I am talking too much in an incorrect tone and I just can’t...
There is so much going so wrong I just can’t seem to be enough. I didn’t think there was any conflict and then bam. Something I needed to help keep suicidal thoughts at bay is gone.
I'm so sorry you got banned.
Slightly off topic...but if swimming is such an integral part of your well being it might be worth considering a different avenue to include it in your life?
You know me <whistling> “Moving” is almost always my first solution based thought... and that’s neither possible nor desireable for most people. Still, it’s a thing to consider for either the short/long term; as some options would be immediately available, and others might “just” be the whole 5 year plan kind of thing.
Locally
- An apartment with a pool (but that still means dealing with people...who can close the pool, rent out the pool, have stupid rules, etc.)
- A house with a pool (rent or buy)
- A house with room to have a pool dug & pool house (for year round swimming, essentially a big ole greenhouse) built. <<< This is one of the best options for physical disabilities, as you can build it to suit your own needs.
Less Locally
- A climate that allows for year round swimming (Pools, rivers, ocean)
- A climate that makes home/apartment pools the norm
It doesn’t seem from an outside perspective like you have a whole lot tying you to where you are, right now. As, if I’m remembering correctly, you’re thinking of leaving your job, and have renewed the marathon-therapy-search. I could be completely wrong, in that, as there are more reasons to live somewhere than a job you love & stellar specialists.
I need to figure out how to shut myself up more. I spoke to the powers that be and after talking they are ending the temp ban early. They want to meet. Fine. They said point blank, “We didn’t want to prevent you from swimming but you kept refusing to meet with us.”
I began to look for places to swim up to 500 miles away, and dear goodness lakes require redactions to swim now because covid capacity issues. Pools are booked. I did find an alternative place for the weekend.
Moving is a whole other thing... and something I want to do... finding other ways to get what swimming does for my brain would be good too.
Why can’t I just be a quirky rambler?! Most my friends offline say I’m overly quiet. But on some things... why can’t the world just let me be a quirky rambler and move on...
Just a thought....swimming was going great, along with aerobics classes, and made all the difference for me. Then covid hit.....I'm from water....live on water, and will die on water....the water alone is calming. I decided to get a kayak....and explore. The exercise alone from kayaking helps a lot, and I can go for a swim, or let my feet hang in the water....and kayaking you get wet, got nature right there, and I've met a few waterfront neighbors. So, maybe you can branch out into other water sports. I've only had the kayak solution for a little over a week and it's made all the difference in the world since I can't use the pool.