Can Anyone Perceive Their Trauma As A Form Of Energy?

[Fagiva]

Hi original poster. I was Ehate before.

I can understand when you describe those two experiences that you started wanting more normal talk therapy.

The first one in particular, is the sort of therapy I think everyone should stay well away from. Personally, I don't think someone who would say you are cursed is either a healer or trustworthy. That isn't my image of energy healing, it's certainly not anything I'd recommend. I'm sorry you had that experience.

Regarding the other experience you describe, it's hard to comment. I'm fascinated by your dream and the singing. I do a lot of dream interpretation, and dreams can have unexpected layers when you go into them more deeply. Also, any physical thing that happens in the dream state - like the singing - can be a sign of a major shift. But I completely understand if you wanted to call a halt at that point.

I just wanted to emphasise that there are some well established, well-regulated professional bodies/colleges for types of energy healing. So you can check first that you'll be seeing someone trained, qualified and registered in a proper system of treatment and ethics. Here in the UK, for instance, I could see someone registered with the National Federation of Spiritual Healers (but I wouldn't go to see someone who just called themselves a spiritual healer). I could also seek out someone within that who had experience working with survivors of trauma.

I wanted to stress that in case anyone else is thinking about it.

 

[Ekepu]

Hi I'm the original poster and would like to return to this discussion. Thank you Fagiva for that. I think I am not ready for seeing a spiritual healer at this point. Yesterday I had an interaction from someone who is from the group that involves my trauma, and having communication with this person, I felt the mechanisms at work that could cause the panic. I am not sure if my inner functions would suddenly lock into frozen victim modus, but it feels like I could, so the panic is even stronger for fear of losing control of myself and so doing something I don't want to do. :wtf:

I am so weary of this because it is like having another being inside of you, sometimes, especially after I sleep, it is very peaceful and I feel okay, but sometimes the anxiety makes it feel like fire. Like totally enflammed. I am reading about this term called Highly Sensitive Person, and read a discussion if sexual abuse causes the sensitivity, or the other way around. I am guessing that this energy ball is due to this heightened sensitivity. I am just wondering how I could ever function like a normal person?

This thing acts up after a couple hours of normal stress level work. It is like my brain is forever deformed and I can litarally feel the separation of the brain, with two different thinking frameworks. I have tried to tell a doctor about this, but what can they do... they would normally diagnose it as some form of DID or DESNOS but that wouldnt help me one bit, and its completely irrelevant...

Anyways I guess I am just venting about this and would like to exchange any further conversation regarding senstivity etc.