Can I Believe To My "body Memories".

[Hope1969]

Hi, Hope1969!

Our body is related to our brain, and memory. Sensations that we experienced may be mislead...

Hi,

i am not sure that i understand what you are tryin to say .....:-)

 

[katz]

I don't know for sure.

Hope1969. I wanted to be sure that you knew that seeing these images from the 3rd person is completely normal. I remember most of my memories looking down from the corner of the ceiling. So be sure that you don't see yourself as "odd" for remembering this way.

I also recommend starting a journal, if you haven't already. As I remember my memories, I tend to forget them rather quickly also. It is always good for me to go back and read that I'm not making these things up. It gives me reassurance that I have remembered these things before.

 

[Dissociated1]

Hi,

i am not sure that i understand what you are tryin to say .....:)

Children remember things differently than adults. The memories stored in their developing minds are a combination of shadowy impressions, feelings and emotions versus the discrete facts and details we remember as adults. Trying to make sense of events and experiences we repressed as children is a winding path of misunderstanding and discovery leading to the truth.

 

[Hope1969]

Katz -
Hi, i am trying to write a journal but it is very difficult for me. like if i will write things it will become true and part of me dont want it to be true. in my last meeting with my T she said that she is very sad for me because of the things i told her. i didnt understand why she is so sad because i believe that we will find out that i maid things up (i didnt :) ) the things that i feel and see are so terrible that i cant stand writing them or even feeling them too long.

about the 3rd person - lately i remeber the meetings with my T as if every time i sit in different place in the room. one time in the corner of the room. anothe time were the window is located and my chair is empty (i allways sit in the same place). strange . . .

 

[katz]

Katz -
Hi, i am trying to write a journal but it is very difficult for me. like if i will write thing...

Hope1969, you should be sure that your T knows that you "see" things this way. It is another thing that you can discuss and learn to understand. (it is also very normal). The T can help you keep grounded while you're there in the office, if this starts to happen to you. Tell the T how you feel.

I used to have a signal that I gave to my friends, when I was in high school. Maybe you and your T should talk about finding one that is comfortable for you? Mine is just a motion with my hand. I am usually unable to speak when mine come, but as soon as I "feel" a certain way, I let them know. The T can take notice of your expressions and help you to interpet them later.
It is not unusual to sit in the exact same place every time you go. You should sit where ever you're the most comfortable.

As for your journal, you don't need to write out what happened to you. The journal is for your eyes only. There are a lot of the "details" that I have never wrote out in mine--ever. My journal goes back over 30 years! When you're ready to think more about it, then you can write. Just don't feel any--and I mean any--obligation to write out anything that you don't want to. You should be completely comfortable writing in your journal. Always. It is for you.

When you're ready to write, just find a quiet place that you feel safe and comfortable. I always keep a box of Kleenex handy also, and a blanket if needed. If you need to stop at anytime, that's ok too. I go months sometimes between entries.

I also have lots, and lots of different types of papers in my journal. LOL I have post it notes and scrap papers from all over, because I think of things at the most odd times and I don't want to forget them, so I write them down quickly and just attach the paper into my journal when I get home.

(( )) hugs to you-if you take them,

 

[Hope1969]

Hope1969, you should be sure that your T knows that you "see" things this way. It is another thing that yo...

Hi Katz. Thanks for the advice about the journal. I used to write a journal since 8 years old until 25. I love writing. I have to get use to it again.

Regarding the room I meant to say that although I sit evry meeting in the same place. After I go home and remember things about the meeting I realize that I remember my self sitting in odd places where there are no place to sit. As if the memory is different from the reality. It's like you think about your home and every time you think about it you see the TV in other place but not in its normal place.

Thanks for the hugs :)

 

[katz]

Hi Katz. Thanks for the advice about the journal. I used to write a journal since 8 years old until 25...

Hi, Hope
I have memories of sitting on the floor in "every room" of our house (growing up). When I realized this, I thought it was kind of weird. I can remember sitting in every corner and hiding, so I could cry. Even in the corner of the furnace room by the hot water tank.
No wonder I'm still the most comfortable sitting on the floor. (Getting up is the problem now! LOL)

 

[Hope1969]

Getting up is the problem now! LOL)

Yep I know the getting up issue :)

 

[katz]

Yep I know the getting up issue :)

The weirdest part to me is that I'm still--to this day--more comfortable sitting on the floor. I'm going to look very odd as an old woman who sits on the floor--while I'm crocheting!! LOL
(I wonder if they will let me do that when/if I get to the "old folks" home?) LOL