stranger2myself!
Policy Enforcement
i cant handle making phone calls to businesses where they make you respond to an automated voice system, especially if its hard to get a hold of an actual human being. i get extremely extremely angry. livid doesnt even begin to describe the intensity of the rage i feel from it. I dont make phone calls to these places endless i ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO. otherwise i avoid it. it makes me scream, yell, cuss, and want to bust up everything in sight, and smash everything in my path. ive broken things many times because of it, and i sweat, and my body shakes too. ive seen other people get irritated when they are dealing with phone calls, but never seen anyone get nearly as pissed off as i get from it. someone use to relentlessly critisize me everytime i made a phone call, and yell at me, degrade me, make me feel like i could never say the right thing, gave me nasty looks, and was physically abusive. he is out of my life now, but i am still dealing with the intense anger. it doesnt seem to get any better with time. anyone else have this problem? does anything help? is this a personal ptsd trigger for me?