EmmaDancing
Confident
Okay, so you know how when you were a kid, people would tell you not to watch that movie or read that book because it will 'give you nightmares'? I've started watching as many horrible stuff and reading the most disturbing books as I can, because I want those nightmares. Instead of the nightmares I already get - flashbacks mostly, but suicide and cutting stuff too; I wake up terrified. I'm exhausted and triggered all day. I'm so damn tired of this, especially because it's fall - it's always worse in the fall because that's when it started.
So I'm trying to change my nightmares. Trade them in, I guess. Is this in any way logical or am I totally losing it? Has anybody else ever felt this way?
So I'm trying to change my nightmares. Trade them in, I guess. Is this in any way logical or am I totally losing it? Has anybody else ever felt this way?