oregontreehugger
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I once hugged a tree which made me so happy I laughed hysterically with tears of joy, I watched my tears roll down my face & fall into the trees roots.
It was one of the most remarkable moments of my experience being a human being.
I can't stop thinking about that moment.
Now, what to say at this moment....
Hi. I am a parent, a partner, a treehugger.
I've been struggling to see the trees.
When I can't see the trees, I can't be me.
I've been repeatedly blindsided by the trauma I endured throughout my childhood. My son started kindergarten this year, I went no contact with my immediate family and I was able to begin to process it all. It's relentless.
I'm scheduled to start IOP. My last therapist terminated me because of my anger, the last last one I triggered. Can't seem to get help, even though everyone is telling me I need to get help. I've been trying to get suitable mental health care for the last five years really, but most intense need has been since August. Still trying. IOP isn't even in person, no options for alternative therapy (art/movement/anyyything) other than ZOOM video. Tired of needing help when the help is lacking so severely. I'm just tired. A customary feature of living life in the Slough of Despond.
I'm sure I'll spend time poring over the stories and experiences shared here.
Hope to meet some of you in the forum sometime. oth.
It was one of the most remarkable moments of my experience being a human being.
I can't stop thinking about that moment.
Now, what to say at this moment....
Hi. I am a parent, a partner, a treehugger.
I've been struggling to see the trees.
When I can't see the trees, I can't be me.
I've been repeatedly blindsided by the trauma I endured throughout my childhood. My son started kindergarten this year, I went no contact with my immediate family and I was able to begin to process it all. It's relentless.
I'm scheduled to start IOP. My last therapist terminated me because of my anger, the last last one I triggered. Can't seem to get help, even though everyone is telling me I need to get help. I've been trying to get suitable mental health care for the last five years really, but most intense need has been since August. Still trying. IOP isn't even in person, no options for alternative therapy (art/movement/anyyything) other than ZOOM video. Tired of needing help when the help is lacking so severely. I'm just tired. A customary feature of living life in the Slough of Despond.
I'm sure I'll spend time poring over the stories and experiences shared here.
Hope to meet some of you in the forum sometime. oth.