Wastinglight
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My boy’s not doing too well lately. His doctor has finally stepped him down off Seroquel, which is a really good thing, the side effects were causing a lot of problems for him. He’s on a new medication now – I think it might be Desipramine (I forgot to write it down!). He’s suddenly got more energy, but not in a good way. He’s very restless and isn’t sleeping well. Normally I stay at his place the entire weekend from Friday night til Monday morning. He spent a great deal of time this past weekend working out in his garage while I was there, and on Sunday morning he asked if it was okay if I didn’t stay that night.
Add to that, his back pain has been agonising this week. I spent a lot of time massaging his lower back, which seems to help temporarily. I’ve made a few suggestions about more effective treatments to investigate, but as always with my guy, hopefully he will look into them when he's feeling up to it.
He's really having a rough time at the moment. I’m trying to be understanding, and I can see he’s still trying really hard to make me feel loved. It’s hard though. I want to be there for him, to help wherever I can. It does upset me when he pushes me away because it triggers my anxiety. I was already feeling a bit neglected, for several other reasons, and that made me feel worse. He said he didn’t want me to stay last night because he’s feeling really scattered and needs space, and feels guilty spending so much time out in the garage when I’m there, even though I told him I don’t mind. And I think that's fair enough.
Yesterday he said to me: “I know I have your heart, and you have mine.” He’s doing everything I asked of him – telling me what’s going on with him, and how his symptoms are making him feel, taking necessary steps to manage his symptoms, and being affectionate and loving as much as he can right now. I can’t fault him on anything really. So it makes me feel even more unjustified in how I’m feeling right now. I feel guilty for feeling like this cos it's not his fault. I feel horrible and ungrateful. Damn my insecurities.
Anyway, we’ll get through it. Just wanted to write it out. I sent him a loving, positive message this morning, to make sure he knows that we're okay.
If anyone would like to share their experiences with their partner changing meds (including what sorts of things to expect), that would be appreciated. He is a bit more irritable and nit-picking since he started on the new meds, but that’s about all so far (apart from isolating).
Add to that, his back pain has been agonising this week. I spent a lot of time massaging his lower back, which seems to help temporarily. I’ve made a few suggestions about more effective treatments to investigate, but as always with my guy, hopefully he will look into them when he's feeling up to it.
He's really having a rough time at the moment. I’m trying to be understanding, and I can see he’s still trying really hard to make me feel loved. It’s hard though. I want to be there for him, to help wherever I can. It does upset me when he pushes me away because it triggers my anxiety. I was already feeling a bit neglected, for several other reasons, and that made me feel worse. He said he didn’t want me to stay last night because he’s feeling really scattered and needs space, and feels guilty spending so much time out in the garage when I’m there, even though I told him I don’t mind. And I think that's fair enough.
Yesterday he said to me: “I know I have your heart, and you have mine.” He’s doing everything I asked of him – telling me what’s going on with him, and how his symptoms are making him feel, taking necessary steps to manage his symptoms, and being affectionate and loving as much as he can right now. I can’t fault him on anything really. So it makes me feel even more unjustified in how I’m feeling right now. I feel guilty for feeling like this cos it's not his fault. I feel horrible and ungrateful. Damn my insecurities.
Anyway, we’ll get through it. Just wanted to write it out. I sent him a loving, positive message this morning, to make sure he knows that we're okay.
If anyone would like to share their experiences with their partner changing meds (including what sorts of things to expect), that would be appreciated. He is a bit more irritable and nit-picking since he started on the new meds, but that’s about all so far (apart from isolating).
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