walruspasta
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Hello, a couple of days ago I remembered a situation I had somewhat erased from my memory, in which I think I was the perpetrator.
First, I think it is important to know that I was exposed to sexual activity from very young; I think I started watching pornography when I was around 7-8.
Around that same time, I started having sexual experiences with one of my classmates, in which we would, consensually, experiment with each others bodies. It never got to penetration but a lot of other forms of sex. (we were both males btw)
Couple of years later, I was exposed to pornography by a cousin older than me by around 2-3 years ? I was around 10 and he was around 13. It was one night in which he showed me pornography and tried to get me to masturbate with him. I’m not sure if I was consenting, as I was used to doing that kind of stuff because of my past experiences w my classmate, but something sure did feel off.
Around those same times, another cousin (female, this time) and I started kissing and touching each others’ private parts during a “dad and mom” game. Let me remind you I got pretty used to sexual activity from a pretty early age.
The situation I recalled a couple of days ago, however, was one night where I was sleeping with my female cousin, and while she was sleeping, I touched her private parts. It was around those same times and we were both around 10. I can’t recall my motives for doing so, but I’m sure I didn’t understand, and wasn’t talked about limits of other people’s bodies. That was the first and only time something like that happened, and I’m seeking help from an external to understand this situation better
Thanks
First, I think it is important to know that I was exposed to sexual activity from very young; I think I started watching pornography when I was around 7-8.
Around that same time, I started having sexual experiences with one of my classmates, in which we would, consensually, experiment with each others bodies. It never got to penetration but a lot of other forms of sex. (we were both males btw)
Couple of years later, I was exposed to pornography by a cousin older than me by around 2-3 years ? I was around 10 and he was around 13. It was one night in which he showed me pornography and tried to get me to masturbate with him. I’m not sure if I was consenting, as I was used to doing that kind of stuff because of my past experiences w my classmate, but something sure did feel off.
Around those same times, another cousin (female, this time) and I started kissing and touching each others’ private parts during a “dad and mom” game. Let me remind you I got pretty used to sexual activity from a pretty early age.
The situation I recalled a couple of days ago, however, was one night where I was sleeping with my female cousin, and while she was sleeping, I touched her private parts. It was around those same times and we were both around 10. I can’t recall my motives for doing so, but I’m sure I didn’t understand, and wasn’t talked about limits of other people’s bodies. That was the first and only time something like that happened, and I’m seeking help from an external to understand this situation better
Thanks