Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

I’m proud of myself anyway, though. I think I saw the tornado at the same time as the National Weather Service! You can see the spirl, the thick, and the dip. I wonder why I didn’t go to meteorology school, lol.

 

[littleoc]

spirl, the thick, and the dip

I have no idea what the technical terms are. Might look it up later when I’m less nervous

 

[frogthroat]

I feel a lot of pressure to move out, and I still want to, but I’m not sure I can. Money. My sister’s husband’s mom told me her kids’ horror stories and reminded me that my mom isn’t charging me rent and is buying my food. I’m think of those months away where I was barely eating.

Hey, I make $11.50 an hour and I can make it. I set out $150 for the rent, $60 for electric, $20 for therapy, and $60 for groceries. If you're not eating as much you can always freeze half of what you make for next week. It's no big deal. Do you have a credit card? It helps. You can buy your gas and groceries with it every week and then make sure you have the money to pay by the end of the month before the interest hits. It will build your credit.
Tell your BIRB that I love her. She's too adorable.
You'll be okay. I know moving out will be such a huge step in your healing. You'll start to trust yourself and start to see that you can take care of yourself.

 

[frogthroat]

Oh I forgot to type that's what I take out each paycheck.

 

[bellbird]

Sending lots of hugs :hug: :hug: :hug: @littleoc .
I hope the worst of the storm passes soon.

 

[littleoc]

Thank you, @RuffledFeathers!!!

I think my bird would love you! She’s my lil rescue. She’s figured life out, though!

That’s really comforting about the rent. I’m just so nervous about not having enough money. Rent here is usually between 400-800$ a month (not sure if that includes utilities!) but would be about that if I somehow got a house. I guess we’ll see! :D

@bellbird Thanks! Currently it’s just windy and rainy, only saw one lightnight strike so far (thank goodness because I haven’t showered yet!) so maaaaaybe it’ll stay calm! The front is almost here tho

 

[littleoc]

Oh, god damn it. There’s a tornado RIGHT outside. (Ten-twenty miles away?) f*cking hell.

Guess I better put off my shower.

Whyyyyyyyy.

 

[littleoc]

At least it SOUNDS pretty.

 

[littleoc]

It’s. RIGHT. There. Going to have a heart attack, excuse me.

I hate bad weather. You don’t take anti-anxiety for bad weather. You need the adrenaline.

I hope it misses us, but it’s AWFULLY close. Best start saving my phone battery. It’ll be done scaring me in about twenty minutes and then I can consider sleep for about two hours until the next part hits

Lol who needs sleep

 

[littleoc]

If you don’t hear from me, though, just assume the cell phone tower went out! I’m kind of hardy

Maybe I should chill, I’ll probably be fine. May have to help people who aren’t later

Jesus calm down brain you’re embarrassing yourself! It will be fine

 

[littleoc]

It might not even be totally on the ground man, you’re high elevation for a reason

Bright side: pretty view!

 

[littleoc]

Better bright side: it went right by us

Main city should still be afraid, it’s going right for them

This is going to be a sucky night. Which politician is messing up our polls with tornadoes? I’m onto you

No seriously though, I’m wasting concentration power on trying to comfort myself by posting somewhere that physically can’t fix tornadoes, lol. Glad I’ve learned to talk it out?