Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

National Weather Service wants us to stay in shelter for another 32 minutes. My mom’s trying to catch some Zzz’s upstairs now because she’s getting up early to take her sister to the polls.

So I guess she is planning on being fast suddenly if it hits, lol. Probably would be with adrenaline though. I’m saving my pets

Except Nudge maybe, unless I can grab him quickly

 

[littleoc]

Two more tornadoes. I think im just going to save my phone for an emergency at this point. The first missed us, the second is south-ish, and the third is down the highway by ten miles but hopefully won’t get up the ridge (not sure why it would try anyway).

Calmly told my mom about it. She elected to get more Zzz’s. If she can be that calm in the face of things we can’t control, maybe I can be too

Although in tornado weather you are supposed to seek shelter immediately. Tornadoes are like trains. They are going WAY faster than they look.

I think she’s right, though, they often miss this one spot. The pressure is getting creepy low though

 

[littleoc]

Stupid climate change. GO BACK TO SPRING, WINDY TUBES

 

[littleoc]

Yaaaay, it dissipated

Maybe it didn’t touch the ground! I’ll find out after emergency services do

Four more hours and we’ll be in the all clear ??

I should try to relax or something. I probably shouldn’t post every time a tornado happens

I’ve got a killer headache now

 

[bellbird]

Talk it out as much as you need ❤
Glad you're safe

 

[littleoc]

Thanks

Feeling calmer since two of them went right by without looking at us. But we heard an explosion(???? Though it could be that lightning hit a tree, which happens) and I don’t think the main city is okay, but I am not emergency services so we will leave it alone

My ears are ringing, and I think ibuprofen is in orders

Hopefully that’s the worst of the storm. I think it may be safe to take a fast shower now so I can change into PJs and sleep, because I am tired.

But I am also remembering being a little kid and going to bed with shoes, full outfit, and sometimes a helmet so we could move quickly on nights like this, you know, IN SPRING. So I’m going to feel vulnerable in PJs. Maybe I’ll leave my clothes folded nearby. Although even my current outfit wouldn’t protect me from sounds, but having bare skin IS worse.

Why am I discussing this? I should try to sleep and I can do that either laying on my covers in full clothes, or showering and then being comfy in my jammies under the comforter where I will actually sleep

I legit can’t tell if I’m talking to/from PTSD brain or not. Lol.

Stupid 2006 super cells. Stupid senile bus driver.

 

[littleoc]

Actual, no, stupid DAD. If I had been allowed to look for comfort after that decimation, I bet I would be coping better. I don’t know. I feel like I’m overreacting — but also it was RIGHT THERE so I’m not sure??

Maybe a question to ask my therapist. She lives in... shit, the main city. I bet she knows what normal reaction are like, though, since she lives here. And her clients do. I will text her tomorrow that way if I don’t get an answer I’ll know to worry.

My sister lives a few miles down the highway, in the other direction. Hopefully she’s good.

I think a shower would relax me. I could also speed change into real clothes if i hear the tornado alarms. (Yes, alarms, because my side of town doesn’t have tornado sirens. I’m actually doubtful any of my city does...)

I just can’t not think about how much time that would waste if I have to save pets/dog and get to the safe place. Is this PTSD brain being caught in the past, me overreacting to a current event at best, or totally normal?? Lol

I’m chill on the outside though. Mostly because I was telling Nestle is was going to be okay. She doesn’t like tornadoes either. She’s been alive long enough to know that they suck! :)

Maybe it’s normal to be chill but not feel chill when its that close?

I did just jump at my watch telling the hour tho

 

[littleoc]

I bet I’m gonna have a nightmare!

Maybe not though! That would be cool!

 

[bellbird]

Wishing you and Nestle a restful sleep :hug: :hug:

 

[ILoveLife]

Holy crap, that was an adrenaline rush to read. Like watching an action movie.
I am SO glad you're okay.
Scary stuff.
:hug:

 

[littleoc]

Yeah, it REALLY was not fun

I think they are destruction tubes, not windy tubes.

Anyway, we seem to be in the all clear? The watch for tornades goes until 3am. I’m nervous about sleep because earlier today a tornado waaaaay east of here (very far away) suddenly formed over a city and no warning could be issued because it happened too fast. I didn’t read the article to see how many died, because I knew this storm would happen by then and I didn’t feel like spooking myself THAT much today

But yeah, 3am is the actual government official All Clear, so we’ll see! Currently all it’s doing is raining

My mom believes me about the cirrus clouds now though. There were a TON by four pm, so I pointed them out and said “Not to jinx us and hopefully it’s nothing, but that’s tornado weather” and her answer was “that’s pretty” lol

Gonna try to catch zzzzzzz’s

Thank you, guys :hug:

 

[littleoc]

Gotta say, though, this spring is possibly going to really really suck. Having fall tornado season usually means beautiful fall colors, snowy southern winters, and beautiful spring flowers from happy autumn trees that were well watered — unless they get knocked out in spring by destruction tubes