Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

Maybe they can. Someone on the phone last week recommended the unemployment office but I forgot to check their hours. I’ll do that after I get my taxes and other docs sorted.

My mom is gonna take me and Nestle to the vet tomorrow, because we just discovered that Nestle has an infection(?) of some sort. Maybe a skin allergy though? Hard to tell, she said she’d rather take us to the vet than wait for it to get bad.

So she learned from last time, lol

Glad she wants to help, I’ve spent so much on vet bills lately. And car maintenance. Not that I regret either

 

[littleoc]

You’ve given lots of ideas, @Freida, no worries. I’ll be able to think about them better when I’m less symptomatic :)

 

[littleoc]

And no, I have not heard from my therapist yet, but she’s a Christian and today was Sunday, so she probably just doesn’t check her work phone on Sundays. I’m sure I’ll hear from her soon

 

[DharmaGirl]

Also, Goodwill does employment help. If you are in the US, I'm sorry, I forget.

 

[littleoc]

Okay.

So I’m feeling better but not great.

First, I tried to take Nestle to the dog park, but BOTH of us panicked and Nestle decided to leave. She was talking non-stop because of mixed feelings, wanted to play but was afraid. I was feeling the same way and cursing myself for not being braver. It’s stupid for someone who needs a dog to be afraid of dogs... and f*ck the university professors who let their off-leash attack dogs near Nestle. She’s clearly not over it.

Got home. Found out the washer won’t spit out hot water. I assume it’s a plumbing issue or hopefully a hose issue but I didn’t even hear the valve working so I don’t know. I’m faced the with decision to either fix it myself or let another human into the house which might be dangerous and may also risk us being homeless, again. I’m so sick of this. On the other hand, I’m not a f*cking plumber and I’m TERRIFIED of pipes and water so there’s that.

f*cking hate my life right now.

Also the water heater’s relief valve’s hose is leaking. So that’s nice. Hopefully the water heater isn’t because I bet my mom would just leave it to explode again and more human shit will be everywhere again. I don’t think I can handle another trigger.

 

[littleoc]

Also, my therapist can’t see me any sooner. It’s not like I can pay her anyway.

 

[littleoc]

Why toilets and pipes and water? Why dogs? Why not something fun like “triggered by a clean space”? That’d be amazing right now

 

[littleoc]

Sorry, I was trying to be funny. People I met who were afraid of clean spaces aren’t a joke though

 

[littleoc]

The valve to turn off the hot water is stuck. Neat. Time to risk a plumber’s life and then see him talk about our hosue on Reddit I guess

 

[littleoc]

Or him just straight up call the city who already apparently gives no shits about us

 

[littleoc]

I fixed it really fast while having the depression hotline guy tell me about his dog Snowflake. No plumbers needed for now.

I am conflicted about whether to appear in a good mood for dinner at my sister’s or even how to bring this up. I don’t want to ruin my mom’s mood because she’s reallt dramatic about stuff like that and it’s not like there’s any solution anyway.

Yeah, I know I’m being dramatic too. At least I’m in therapy and trying and even trying to think about how to make this all less dramatic.

Ugh

 

[somerandomguy]

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