Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[ILoveLife]

By realising its not our fault. I find lists help!
:hug:

 

[littleoc]

I hate this house.

 

[littleoc]

By realising its not our fault. I find lists help!
:hug:

That makes sense

Lists of affirmations...?

I just keep thinking I’m responsible for my actions. I think this house is a bit of a trigger. Also not being listened to.

I have gained two cats though I guess. Everyone is neglecting their cats around me, but judging everyone else. I can’t bring those two cats into a house like this.

 

[littleoc]

My sister doesn’t love her cats anymore.

Do I like my dog so much because I’m a feral kid? I’m not feral. I went to kindergarten. My mom wouldn’t let me skip it because she was worried her kids wouldn’t develop social skills if we skipped a grade. But kindergarten was so boring and my teacher hated me for acting gay and being the child of an atheist.

I should probably just take my meds and go to bed. I need to clean this house.

 

[littleoc]

I have school work to do.

 

[littleoc]

I need sleep.

 

[littleoc]

Why is it almost 1am? Why won’t my psychiatrist give me a medication for OCD?

 

[ILoveLife]

I don't know how I would react.
There was a period there where my mom didn't care at all about our oldest. She wasn't medicated yet, so she was explosive. She would talk with him like he was annoying her all the time. He loves her to death.
I had to teach her how to have a pet, basically. Now she treats him well, takes care of him. But yeah I'm the giving food person, annoying her to clean the litter box. That kind of thing.
Not everyone likes having pets, I don't understand why they have them.
I'm glad I came back to live with her and can take care of him.
She's neglectful.

 

[littleoc]

I don't know how I would react.
There was a period there where my mom didn't care at all about our oldest...

That sounds stressful, but at least you’re there for them.


Also, I’m sorry, @Sietz , I didn’t mean to anxiety in your general direction. I think i should start figuring out how to have room to train a second service dog because I can’t function like a human being :p nestle is a better human than I am anyway. I was listening. Lists and notebooks are very helpful

 

[ILoveLife]

No need to apologize hun. I'm here to listen and can sympathise with your struggle.

 

[littleoc]

Thank you @Sietz

 

[littleoc]

I’m guessing I’m mostly just confused, because I just realized it’s summer, not winter. I looked outside and there was not any snow.

I wish there was snow, though! It’s so hot this summer, but at least my mom has air conditioner (like an entire-house unit too, it’s soooo nice, I wish I could share it).