Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

Nah, I’m not ready to move out.

Unless the house doesn’t get clean. I’m tired of fire dreams.

 

[littleoc]

Actually, if I promised to help care for my sister’s cats and child, she might let me move in? She let her brother-in-law live there for about six months. Wanted him out before she had a baby. He didn’t clean up after himself and paid rent very late at them. Also chipped the crib they bought.

My sister would possibly be more lenient with me? Hopefully it wouldn’t come to that, but it’s good to keep in mind I suppose. I’d literally feel more comfortable in a tent in their backyard.

I camped in Iceland in below freezing tempatures. It was the most comfortable thing ever. Loved it. Summer camping is a bit harder though. My Russian hair doesn’t let the heat escape, 28C and I’m about dead, lol (80ish F)

 

[littleoc]

I think I complain about this house, on average, about once a month in this diary. It’s definitely an added stress that I could seriously do without

 

[littleoc]

I know we need a hazardous materials cleanup specialist downstairs, at least. There was a spill of something that smelled strongly of benzene. I would have called the professionals if I were me at 23, but I had come home from college at age 19 and was basically told it wouldn’t get clean if I didn’t fix it. I never actually found the source. Too much clutter. But I looked up material safety data sheets for ten different chemicals and did my best. But a professional should have been there.

 

[Freida]

Y'know - thinking of the hordes show.. One of the saddest ones I ever saw was a 17 year old who lived with his dad who was a horder. After they did the clean up thing, they went back 6 months later for a "where are they now". The kid had blocked off the kitchen so his dad couldn't put anything in there. He was so excited showing the tv crew that he could put glasses away in the cupboard. His room was also clean. And all I could wonder was -- how long will it last? Because from what I've seen most hoarders don't get better unless they want to do the work. And we all know how hard work is.
Once the house is clean it means there are whole new spots to fill up.

I didn't realize mom doesn't own the house -- so I believe your grandparents need a heads up. At this point they will have to spend a fortune cleaning it up before they could ever sell it -- and that isn't fair to any landlord. Will they be mad at your mom? Yep. Will that force her to get help? Maybe

I love!!! the idea of staying with your sister!! Please ask her. You need to be somewhere you can feel like you can breathe.

 

[littleoc]

Hmmmm great points

I should at least talk to my sister. I could offer to make dinner or something. Clean the house for them. Watch a fUn nEpHeW maybe. Maybe at least until I get my bedroom to be completely livable.

I want to make my lil bro’s room my office, but I need to be careful. A cat used to go to the bathroom under the desk that is now in New York. My brother had lit candles to cope with the smell. That isn’t my cup of tea but he did his best

 

[littleoc]

Two things:
(1) I just want to take a moment and let y’all know that I really appreciate you <3

(2) I’ve put some thought into living with my sister. I hope this doesn’t come across as me being difficult, but my sister’s husband is very triggering to me. (Not because he’s Native American, though I will, very ashamedly and sadly, admit it doesn’t help.) He hates my dog and will interrupt her tasks to make her move over when he could have. He would prefer to eat my bird over hearing her. He loses his temper often. He caused tons of problems for me when I was a teenager. He and my mom felt teenagers were evil and yet not worth time. Now he continues this by saying stuff about millennials. He’s not the worst person ever or anything, but our core beliefs clash heavily (and he’s bad at politics which is never great, as he always brings up his thoughts on everything without doing a lick of research) and we really, really don’t get along.

Weighing my options around though. My plan before considering moving was to finish cleaning out my room. Give myself a place to live. Then I can work from there.

It won’t g that smoothly, but hey, it’s what I’ve got to work with right now.

Surprise! (3):

My boss’s boss’s boss let me bring Nestle back into work, no vest on, so she’s not working but is getting pets from other staff. People were getting on the floor with her.

She helped me a bit anyway. My productivity went up so much!

This bike trailer has been frustrating, but it’s working very well. Also caused me to finally have to talk to the landlord (I wanted to borrow a wrench, seems I don’t have my tool box, possibly because I don’t have one). Nestle likes it!

 

[littleoc]

Nestle likes the trailer, not the wrench. Nestle doesn’t care about wrenches. ?

 

[LuckiLee]

I thought I remembered you had difficulties with your brother in law (& sister too, no?). Can you find a room to rent? Someone to rent an apartment with? Could you place an add at your college? Safely? I would let you rent a room in a heartbeat. Sending you hugs and energy to figure this out. Everything else is going great in your life. You deserve a healing environment. XO

 

[littleoc]

Great points, @LuckiLee , I’ll look around some more

 

[littleoc]

Also, we are doing well today

This trailer weighs 90lbs (around 45kg?) when she’s in it. Guess that’ll take care of my weaker muscles?

 

[littleoc]

(I checked, it’s 40kg)