Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

I used to have a giant millipede, more than a foot long, and we used to feed her all the end pieces of vegetables we cut up for dinners

 

[littleoc]

I think her name was Milli


Edit: i remember now, it was Mildred :D

 

[littleoc]

Four things:

(1) I see my psychiatrist tomorrow. We can talk about how my entire city and nearby areas don’t have my meds.

(2) The news story about that lady hitting four children and then going to work (if you’re in the US you probably saw it?) was triggering

(3) I accidentally cut my wrist on a cabinet I put together but put off sanding. Had a flashback to my little brother. My cut wasn’t deep though.
(I cut my belly and thighs. Not my wrists.)

(4) I forgot, I’ll edit this later

Happy Halloweeeeeen ???
??????‍??‍??‍??‍??‍??‍?‍?‍?‍?‍??‍??‍??‍??‍????????????????? jeez there are a lot of emojis. They haven’t published the service Dog emoji yet, they said would but they lied

 

[littleoc]

Actually! They claim to have added the service dog!

Service Dog Emoji

I like to wait to update my phone

 

[ILoveLife]

I wouldn’t have let a pedophile f*ck me if I had different thoughts about life by then.

Uhm... what? You didn't "let" anything happen. You were a child, probably scared shitless.

 

[littleoc]

Oh, good point

Yeah, no, he totally duped me. Haven’t met a man that crazy since!

 

[littleoc]

And won’t

 

[ILoveLife]

:hug:

 

[littleoc]

:hug:

Honestly, I haven’t tried to figure out why he couldn’t get arrested. He had two huge breakdowns from what I know/saw. So if he feels guilty he will eventually f up and end up in a hospital and have to confess. The fact that he felt bad, even if he tricked me into thinking that, really makes me feel better

Not that I really understand what was happening at the time. I processed my dad fine in EMDR, but not that dude, but whatever makes me comfy for now i guess. :)

 

[ILoveLife]

I had a T explaining to me that pedophilia is considered a mental illness, that a lot of times if they confess and get help, they aren't prosecuted.
I quit one T because he kept excusing pedos, wanting me to see the humanity of it or whatever, and I couldn't take it.

 

[bellbird]

:hug: :hug:

 

[littleoc]

Seems true from my limited resources @Sietz

I did a huge research project a while back on sexual orientation and the brain. It was hard seeing some things. Pedo used to say things similarly but different.