Illogical reason my brain is worried: a meteor (or the right bomb) hitting earth could vaporize things within a hundred miles or so, cause things within 700 miles to autoignite (or melt, like steel would), cause massive tsunamis and intense earthquakes, and then trigger a ten year winter that would also be weirdly warm in places but no photosynthesis could happen. The worst part being that if it started here, y’all or other people I like might worry about me FOREVER because I’d either have died instantly or else be surviving very minimally and not with good chances of survival, but I’d be guaranteed to never have internet or a phone ever again in my entire life to offer updates.
Reason I ought to be worried but am not for some reason: my car has the machine equivalent of a terminal disease, and I need to save up for a new one within a year or five (maybe more though!!!)
What even is that? Intrusive thought from OCD? Anxiety that only focuses on imaginary, probably unlikely scenarios? (SEE WHAT I MEAN?? Why “probably,” brain?? It’s very unlikely!)
One thing I do know: It’s definitely caused by having-had-wine-a-day-ago and sleep deprivation. Because typically this is definitely not something that would keep me up at night. Why worry about something that’s not only improbable, but also waaaaaay out of my control? My normal philosophy is to play it by ear. So if I somehow survived a meteor then I’d grieve for a while, adjust to my new reality, and either survive or not.
Might make a slightly amusing short story, lol
Okay, I’m good now ?? Talking it out always works.
I really need to be careful and figure out which wines are doing this to my brain days afterward.
I miss you, not-as-injured brain. Before-2017 brain would never have lost its temper in front of a mother at a light going out.
To be fair that was utter bullshit. My mom left feeling bad though, for something that wasn’t her fault. I hate that.
Okay, quit it, brain. That memory literally doesn’t matter at 4:42 AM. Lol
