Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

Thank, @MrMoonlight :hug: I got some rest.

 

[littleoc]

@somerandomguy :hug:s back :)

 

[littleoc]

Sorry for this post, but That trigger from last month that made me suicidal for like two or three weeks (I dunno) just happened again. I tried to stay chill.

Today was going fine before that.

I have decided to live in a patch of grass I just found.

 

[littleoc]

Maybe if I talked about it it will stop. I can’t remember why it’s a trigger though.

 

[littleoc]

I’d probably just stress myself out. I’ll distract myself instead.

I took nestle to the vet and the vet said that my dog can go places with me as long as it isn’t strenuous.

Oh right, a giant storm is about to arrive. I can’t live in a grass patch.

 

[littleoc]

I went to the Human Rights Campaign volunteer open house. I’m going to sign up for stuff. Current goal: make it illegal to fire someone, evict/refuse to house someone, and refuse to do business with someone who is gay or trans. Because currently all those are legal. Anything in the civil rights thing can be refused against a gay person at the moment, in like 31(?) states.

Goals are amazing at preventing suicidal thoughts!

 

[littleoc]

I am too stressed to go home but there’s a giant storm on the horizon.

Not that I can see the horizon. I’m in the woods. And it’s really hilly here anyway.

 

[littleoc]

Nestle has to see a surgeon for a consotation. I don’t know how to spell that, but you can probably figure it out. If Nestle needs a surgery, I’ll have to find somewhere else to live. She would be in danger at my current house.

 

[littleoc]

Our mouser cat just found me, lol. Tracking kitty.

 

[littleoc]

It’s just water. It’s juat water. It’s just water. Nope, that mantra makes it worse. Wtf?

 

[littleoc]

Gonna walk home. Things to do immediately:

Go watch a dumb show. Should take my mind the thing.

 

[littleoc]

I am so anxious that my mouth tastes like chemicals. I need to go home and get my medication but the thought of going in that house is making me so anxious that I can’t think right. Uuuuuuuuugh whyyyy. I hate this. My head hurts and all I wanted to do was go to sleep after a long day of purposefully making myself uncomfortable.