Colorful and hopefully optimistic but maybe hateful occasionally

[littleoc]

His wife and my dad have been liking posts and being generally very weird about the things I've been posting. I have just been casually hiding all their posts so the public can't see it (my account is public for now). My dad keeps liking the things about parents and childhood. Pretty gross. He deserves a block.

 

[littleoc]

Actually, one more thing. My sister keeps making sexual jokes at me. She was drunk tonight and kept making more jokes in front of her son. And generally not taking me seriously. Making very inappropriate comments. It was really upsetting. I think my family might be shittier than I thought.

 

[bellbird]

He deserves a block.

Yep!!

Gosh, so sorry about your sister's behaviour too.

You deserve so many good things. Your myPTSD "family" are here and supporting you :hug:

 

[littleoc]

Thanks, @bellbird :hug: <3

 

[bellbird]

Always, friend :hug: ???❤??

 

[somerandomguy]

@littleoc, your family is a mess.

 

[littleoc]

Yeah. You’re right. ?

 

[Juso]

I think my family might be shittier than I thought.

Same. It's what I've been realizing the last months. Its a real shitty feeling to discover the layers of abuse that the people who were supposed to be there for you put you through. But in the end, we're gonna feel so much better. Because we will be able to clearly see how their horrible behavior has never been about us, but is only a reflection of their problems.

I'm sorry about what that teacher did to you. I've had similar experiences. When I was bullied, the teachers never intervened and sometimes bullied me too. Which was just amazing for my feelings of self worth??But for real though. Its really, really damaging. I'm sorry you had to go through that.

 

[littleoc]

Here’s a text I sent to a friend just now that encapsulates my mood right now:

“[Sister-in-law] is tagging me repeatedly in the anti-gay post. She’s asked for it ?Will be busy writing an essay about how (1) the Bible is written by men, (2) a plague didn’t cancel pride, it killed plenty of people who ARENT GAY, INCLUDING PEOPLE WHO CLAIM GAY IS WRONG, and stopped mission trips and etc., and the cancelation is because the LGBTQ community doesn’t want to kill people, (3) a virus canceled pride, not G-d, and suggesting otherwise is idolatry and a sin of hatred, (4) THE BIBLE DOESNT EVEN SAY THAT ITS WRONG TO BE GAY. It doesn’t! The passages everyone references are always mistranslated and actually about not raping children, or are taken way out of context! The Bible literally says at one point that the love between two men is magical and godly!!! WHY IS MY SISTER CHALLENGING ME TO A BATTLE OF WITS WHEN SHE HASNT GOT A f*ckING BRAIN”

? ?

 

[littleoc]

Same. It's what I've been realizing the last months. Its a real shitty feeling to discover the layers of abuse that the people who were supposed to be there for you put you through. But in the end, we're gonna feel so much better. Because we will be able to clearly see how their horrible behavior has never been about us, but is only a reflection of their problems.

I'm sorry about what that teacher did to you. I've had similar experiences. When I was bullied, the teachers never intervened and sometimes bullied me too. Which was just amazing for my feelings of self worth??But for real though. Its really, really damaging. I'm sorry you had to go through that.

It is shitty to realize... But I guess fine, too. I’ll try having a normal family in my future.

I felt like I deserved my teachers’ treatments. But they should have been helping me. I’d have been away from that pedophile a lot faster if they’d asked me if everything was okay at home. One of them did, though, so maybe I’m wrong.

I feel worse for the kid in the corner, Tyler. He straight up didn’t have running water or electricity, but the teacher was hard on him anyway. Putting him in the corner. I wonder how he’s doing right now. He used to live in my neighborhood but his family lost their house. He deserved understanding.

 

[Freida]

If it gets out of control I can always just block.

yep

I think my family might be shittier than I thought.

I hate that you are having to realize this - but yes. They are who they are - and they probably won't change. It's ok if their dynamic doesn't work for you anymore. It's ok to set your boundaries and expect them to accept them. If they don't it's also ok to move past them into your own life.

WHY IS MY SISTER CHALLENGING ME TO A BATTLE OF WITS

Why are you allowing it?
One thing about people - you won't change them. She believes what she believes. You believe what you believe. Neither of you will change the other's mind.
So before you enter into this fight ask yourself -- why are you doing it?
What do you expect to gain?

Walking away doesn't mean you are letting them win.
It means they aren't worth the effort it would require to engage with them in the first place.

It's ok to let her be stupid.
You don't have anything to prove to her.

 

[Muttly]

Nothing wise today but I wanted to stop by and tell you you are awesome