Complete Cold Hearted Person

[Deleted member 38644]

I feel completely cold-hearted but again I have no caring bone in my body towards people I'm separating myself from/separated myself from. I just got off phone with my Dad and really felt like a stranger. I have absolutely no caring bone in my body for him. It felt as if you are talking to the shell of the body and not me. I'm talking about old memories and asking questions but I'm not feeling nothing at all. it feels as if a stranger comes up to talk to you introducing their self by mentioning memories of you both, you don't know that person at all.

 

[Deleted member 38644]

Spiritual awakening I experienced

 

[Ronin]

<grin> I usually angst about that happening for a time, then point toward the exceptions, & then work on it melting.

Because when I get all-is-one-thing in emotionality? It's usually something toxic & very wrong happening around me, that I'm protecting myself against with that slide. So work on getting safer, and then returning to whoever I want to be with pieces of who I was, before, because that person is still there. Granted, changed. Different. Very different, maybe. But still there and not beyond salvage.

Just remembering that is bit of a hardship, though.

 

[Deleted member 38644]

<grin> I usually angst about that happening for a time, then point toward the exceptions, & then work on i...

Thank you sooooo much. Anything toxic or negative I hsve no feeling for it or the people at all. It feels like when I get somewhere else then I can start caring.

 

[Ronin]

Anything toxic or negative I hsve no feeling for it or the people at all.

Not everyone /deserves/ being felt for.

So: Sometimes, it's right on. Don't judge yourself for it.

 

[Deleted member 38644]

Not everyone /deserves/ being felt for.

So: Sometimes, it's right on. Don't judge yourself for it.[/QUOTE...

Thank you sooooo much

 

[Beaglefan61]

If you have no feeling for toxic people then maybe your heart has shut down to them in self defense. It can do that even to non-toxic people after you have felt deeply hurt. Just try to do the right thing by other people as you can, regardless of how they are, and that is at least something for which you don't have any place for you to have regret and you end up feeling cold about yourself. With that you may not have to be emotionally vulnerable to him and feel much, just the basics of truth, not vengeance, etc. If you do that but feel no warmth that is understandable as there may be reasons for that at this time. If you don't have a caring bone about him at all, there may be too much pain in the way of that now. That is okay for now as maybe you need some sense of being protected when talking with him.