Confrontation

[Colyquin]

Being diagnosed with PTSD, I've had to go back to the beginning and clean cobwebs, face demons, and do brave things. I was diagnosed after being in a very violent sexual relationship for 9 months but had been molested by my dad when I was younger. A week ago I had bariatric surgery and I realized that I can get pretty on the outside but it means nothing if my insides are trash. I always said my dads and my relationship and abuse will never be discussed, it's taboo, just leave it alone. Well a week before surgery I had a strong strong urge and it didn't go away until I acted on it. My dad lives down the street and comes over about once maybe twice a week and we watch movies. We don't and never have discussed my abuse. This day he was in the garage, sorting recyclables and I, out of nowhere asked him why he abused me. I told him that he really messed me up and I wanted to know why he thought he had the right. He explained. That was the hardest, bravest thing I have ever done.

 

[franciemarnie]

Wow!! You are incredibly brave and courageous. That's fantastic.

I can't imagine his justification if he tried to give any, or his reasons - as if it's a rational act or anything but barbaric and monstrous, and I don't need to know.

But you are amazing.

 

[fly away home]

You are very inspiring, what a massive thing to do, what an incredibly brave person you are. I hope this can bring you some peace and healing. Something you most certainly deserve.

 

[arfie]

You confronted and he explained?

Color me green with envy! Confronting my father only earned me another layer of trauma. But I digress...

Congratulations on the courageous act. How are you feeling in the aftermath?

 

[Britt.f7]

Congrats on your courage. How do you feel now?

 

[Colyquin]

I honestly feel like I can fly. I had some idea of what it was doing to me but I had no clue that the weight was so extreme until it lifted off of me. My festering wound, literally got cleaned out, sewn up, and is finally healing properly. All of you are such abig support!

 

[Sweet Girl]

Wow!! You are incredibly courageous!! It sounds like it gave you much needed relief. Congratulations!

 

[HelenB]

I have just read your post and am amazed at how courageous you are. I have often considered confronting my step father, but as of yet have never been able to do it and still have so many fears, and knowing how much must really have been at stake for you really do admire your courage and am so glad that it was able to be so positive for you and wish you well with your continued journey to freedom.

Helen

 

[Justpassintime]

I stand in awe and am fist pumping for you! That's some scary stuff - I never told what was going on - my greatest fear is that no one would believe me and I am still impacted deeply when someone doesn't believe what I am saying is true. I can just imagine your palms sweating and your chest pounding. Good for you - and good for you he acknowledged what you were saying. That's awesome. I will definitely be thinking about your courage when I make a list of things I would like to discuss in therapy this week.

 

[winterose]

Holy Moly, that was awesome. Huge step to reclaiming your life for sure. Stand up and take a bow.