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Hello everyone, I'm Michaela, im 23 and From Ireland :)
I came across this site a couple of days ago and only getting around to posting now.
Firstly My parents separated when I was five but I had a relatively normal upbringing until then, I was a happy child.. After my parents split my mother met a man and moved him in quite quickly, she stayed with him for 6 or 7 years and he was an alcoholic who severely beat my mother, I've never witnessed the beatings face to face but I heard it all, my mother would come up to our rooms and get my brother and me and we would leave the house in the early hours of the morning, we once stayed in a refuge for a couple of weeks.
My dad also met someone and she at the time was a lot of trouble, she gave me in particular a very hard time, referring to me as "one eye" because I have a rare condition called micro opthalmia, which literally means small eye, I have no sight at all in my left eye. She was quiet delusional and would literally go from one extreme to another, one week giving us things and being so lovely then a month later she was a demon, sending messages, really really nasty messages and also telling my dad that he could no longer see my brother and me, obviously this is just a very brief description of my childhood.
I was diagnosed with OCD when I was 17, I was an extremely anxious person and always worried about silly things, one of my big obsessions was the fear of acting out on my thoughts.
2 years ago I took a mental breakdown and was hospitalized. I now attend psycho therapy privately and I find it very helpful, My OCD has subsided but something much worse has taken its place, I find I shift from these Ego states, I shift from one ego state to another and then back to my core personality. I've told my councillor about this and she said I am too aware of what's going on to have multiple personality, and I agree with her, but it really is debilitating sometimes when I go into these different frames of mind, my perceptions change and everything. I "FEEL" like a different person, its nearly like putting a mask on over my mind. These Shifts only last a couple of minutes if even, but they do cause a lot of stress in my life.
I will talk about the different "Ego's" in another post but for now, I just wanted to get that out there and get someone's opinion, I've tried speaking to people at home but they don't understand, My councillor says its a coping mechanism I used because my power had been taken away as a child and now im using "the mask" to express my power. I don't know, but any opinions or advice would be really appreciated. Thank you :)
I came across this site a couple of days ago and only getting around to posting now.
Firstly My parents separated when I was five but I had a relatively normal upbringing until then, I was a happy child.. After my parents split my mother met a man and moved him in quite quickly, she stayed with him for 6 or 7 years and he was an alcoholic who severely beat my mother, I've never witnessed the beatings face to face but I heard it all, my mother would come up to our rooms and get my brother and me and we would leave the house in the early hours of the morning, we once stayed in a refuge for a couple of weeks.
My dad also met someone and she at the time was a lot of trouble, she gave me in particular a very hard time, referring to me as "one eye" because I have a rare condition called micro opthalmia, which literally means small eye, I have no sight at all in my left eye. She was quiet delusional and would literally go from one extreme to another, one week giving us things and being so lovely then a month later she was a demon, sending messages, really really nasty messages and also telling my dad that he could no longer see my brother and me, obviously this is just a very brief description of my childhood.
I was diagnosed with OCD when I was 17, I was an extremely anxious person and always worried about silly things, one of my big obsessions was the fear of acting out on my thoughts.
2 years ago I took a mental breakdown and was hospitalized. I now attend psycho therapy privately and I find it very helpful, My OCD has subsided but something much worse has taken its place, I find I shift from these Ego states, I shift from one ego state to another and then back to my core personality. I've told my councillor about this and she said I am too aware of what's going on to have multiple personality, and I agree with her, but it really is debilitating sometimes when I go into these different frames of mind, my perceptions change and everything. I "FEEL" like a different person, its nearly like putting a mask on over my mind. These Shifts only last a couple of minutes if even, but they do cause a lot of stress in my life.
I will talk about the different "Ego's" in another post but for now, I just wanted to get that out there and get someone's opinion, I've tried speaking to people at home but they don't understand, My councillor says its a coping mechanism I used because my power had been taken away as a child and now im using "the mask" to express my power. I don't know, but any opinions or advice would be really appreciated. Thank you :)
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