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I've put this in dissociation bc I have no clue what to put this in and memory related stuffs tends to be in dissociation so here we are ((:
I think I'm going to start off by saying I'm confused. And maybe just looking for someone who relates/knows what's happening/has any ideas/idk anything.
It's a tricky one to explain (if anyone wants to read some of my previous threads that might help ya'll get an understanding?)
Anyway,
I'm doing pretty well, honestly. Like I'm getting really good grades in college, my moods pretty good.
However, my brain seems to be turning to mush. I keep finding myself in these states of pure confusion about who I am. I can't really remember my name or what I'm doing and what's going on around me and just everything goes completely numb and I sit there contemplating who I really am. Everything I've ever known is gone and I'm just there, really confused. (Mainly about who, Maya, Is?)
It happened a few times this week. Once, just earlier actually. I was at home (not where I live, at my mums) and she was talking to me and I was just utterly confused to who she was and who I was and what i was doing there. The "things" themselves only happen for a few minutes but leaves me feeling utterly lost and still mildly confused for a few hours afterwards.
All in all recently I have found myself quite confused in general but I'm just going a long with things because it seems like the right thing to do and also I don't like projecting my sadness/confusedness on other people
I also experience these blackouts/losing chunks of time things which my T reckons is me in an auto-pilot/not really knowing what I'm doing states where I do weird things that don't make a lot of sense and don't really seem very maya-like but I've been assured I haven't got a screw lose so I'm p happy about that. Is this related?
Also just in case anyone was wondering I don't think I've experienced any head trauma and my intellectual memory (as in college work etc) seem to be fairly good
I know all in all I need to talk to me T about this but we have an hour session once a week and it's a lot to try and fit into one session it's just v overwhelming
Had anyone experienced anything similar? Is this all part of CPTSD? Am I getting early dementia? Any help would be muchly appreciated
Thanks
Maya
I think I'm going to start off by saying I'm confused. And maybe just looking for someone who relates/knows what's happening/has any ideas/idk anything.
It's a tricky one to explain (if anyone wants to read some of my previous threads that might help ya'll get an understanding?)
Anyway,
I'm doing pretty well, honestly. Like I'm getting really good grades in college, my moods pretty good.
However, my brain seems to be turning to mush. I keep finding myself in these states of pure confusion about who I am. I can't really remember my name or what I'm doing and what's going on around me and just everything goes completely numb and I sit there contemplating who I really am. Everything I've ever known is gone and I'm just there, really confused. (Mainly about who, Maya, Is?)
It happened a few times this week. Once, just earlier actually. I was at home (not where I live, at my mums) and she was talking to me and I was just utterly confused to who she was and who I was and what i was doing there. The "things" themselves only happen for a few minutes but leaves me feeling utterly lost and still mildly confused for a few hours afterwards.
All in all recently I have found myself quite confused in general but I'm just going a long with things because it seems like the right thing to do and also I don't like projecting my sadness/confusedness on other people
I also experience these blackouts/losing chunks of time things which my T reckons is me in an auto-pilot/not really knowing what I'm doing states where I do weird things that don't make a lot of sense and don't really seem very maya-like but I've been assured I haven't got a screw lose so I'm p happy about that. Is this related?
Also just in case anyone was wondering I don't think I've experienced any head trauma and my intellectual memory (as in college work etc) seem to be fairly good
I know all in all I need to talk to me T about this but we have an hour session once a week and it's a lot to try and fit into one session it's just v overwhelming
Had anyone experienced anything similar? Is this all part of CPTSD? Am I getting early dementia? Any help would be muchly appreciated
Thanks
Maya
