Sexual Assault Confused

[groovilyconfused]

i am desperately trying to come to terms with the events that have occurred in my life and talk about them for the first time but i have no one to talk to about this. i am really confused and dont understand what has happened to me and never have. up until about twenty minutes ago i didnt want to come to terms with the impact my trauma has had on my life and on me as a person. i would really love someone to talk to and relate to. ive never really talked about this before.

 

[somerandomguy]

We're here. There are a LOT of good listeners on these forums.

 

[EveHarrington]

I advise taking it slowly! There’s no rush, and sometimes if we let out too much at once, symptoms can become unmanageable. I’m not trying to silence you, rather I don’t want to see you end up in a bad place because you shared too much, too fast.

:hug:

 

[groovilyconfused]

thank you i appreciate it your advice. I believe I am going through exactly that right now. It's kind of like trauma overload and I am remembering everything all at once despite my efforts to make it all go away. I just don't know where to start and its overwhelming me...

 

[groovilyconfused]

i am desperately trying to come to terms with the events that have occurred in my life and tal...

i kind of dont even know where to start. i really want to heal and accept the past and forgive and move on with my life but it feels like i never will. what has happened to me controls so much in my life and has for so long that I think it has gotten out of control and I just don't know what to do next. I am seventeen and I just want to be happy. I am moving soon and I don't want to take all of this baggage with me.

 

[Sweetleaf]

It's kind of like trauma overload and I am remembering everything all at once despite my efforts to make it all go away. I just don't know where to start and its overwhelming me...

I know how you feel >.<

Take things as slow as you need to.

If you are able to see someone specialized in trauma, like a therapist, psychologist, etc. - that would be a good idea. I know your age might make that difficult - do you have any options to see anyone who might be able to help? Would talking to a school counselor or a sexual assault victim organization of some kind, be something you would be willing to do? I know reaching out for help is hard >.< but it's important to get help, if your trauma is bothering you and creating problems in your life.

 

[Suzetig]

What was it that happened 20 minutes before your post that’s sparked you needing to talk about trauma? You might find giving that some space will really help.