CPTSD And Bulimia?

[AngelKeeperJ]

Hi! My T has said, about my addiction to sugar; It is an old friend that I've used all my life to 'buffer' reality. Saying good-bye to a 'friend' (the addiction) who has 'served' it purpose is difficult, and requires CHANGE, and that is very difficult, to say the least! He says that eventually when I have coping tools in hand, and have success at coping without my first drug of choice, sugar, I will have conquered my 'demon'. I am doing better and binge much less frequently.

'Blipping' is pretty much expected on our journeys. I believe we can be healed, and yet have those times when we feel like we've made no progress at all! I try to use any and all tools I've learned to combat the panic/anxiety/depression. EMDR, hypnosis, self-hypnosis, visualization, as well as taking better care of myself, whether I want to or not! Like Dr. Phil has said: "Behave your way to success."

Be kind to yourself for every moment, and remember that every day is a new start!

God bless you with the courage and strength you need to conquer this stumbling block one day at a time!

 

[Srain]

I found myself the other day gagging uncontrollably, this coming from flashbacks. There always seems to be a reason for me. At the time it caught me completely off guard but these days it can. I've been a purger since the age of 14 without knowing it had a name. I'm very careful not to do it as at one time I had an uncontrollable bout of gagging and created a hernia. I was in the midst of a horrendous flashback and just couldn't stop. I wanted someone to help stop me but I was alone.

Recently my tdoc told me my mother makes me sick. I guess she is right. They all make me sick, IT all makes me sick and can kill me from the inside out if I let it.

 

[James B.]

They all make me sick

Frankly, this was my case too. My family would've made anyone sick.

about my addiction to sugar; It is an old friend that I've used all my life to 'buffer' reality.

I believe this may have been part of it also. My ordeal lasted a decade.

 

[Lucycat]

I have just returned from a holiday where I was 'forced' to eat more than I was comfortable with. On one particular day we visited 2 families and at each were presented with cakes and other lovely food that I really did not want to eat but did so to be polite. At the end of the day I was sick ( again) the first time for quite a while.

I was disappointed with myself, but at the same time pleased that I could recognise WHY, which some time back I would never have done. So, a small step backwards, but I am not too upset by it. I am getting better!

 

[BlueKitty]

I am totally on the same page with you, Lucycat.
I had been trying my best to keep everything in my life at balance, including eating and exercising.. thus I have not had binge/purge for a long time. During and after the Thanksgiving holiday, however, I was in a situation where I did not have complete control over things. I felt physically and emotionally sick afterwards.. and still am not feeling so great.
But, it did help me in my process of creating my new self, so I'd say it was a positive experience for me in a long run -
Not terribly upset by it. Yay!

Now time to go work out.....