Hi, I’m Laguna, 22 y/o.
I’ve joined seeking a community where I can find support. Used to post in ED forums a lot through a different nickname, but I feel out of place as I don’t have one anymore, even though they have subforums about abuse, they’re not very active as the other areas.
My anorexia started at 18 and lasted a year with a few smaller relapses. That disorder made me realize that I just wanted a small body because I wanted to be like a child again, as I had been sexually abused once at age 8 and multiple times throughout the ages of 13 to 15. Plus there was bullying, my parents constantly fighting with eachother, had a very low self-esteem... It was tough.
Realizing that I didn’t deserve to hurt myself bc of the past and the care of my boyfriend, helped me overcome my ED and I was ready to get into therapy but as we’re in lockdown this won’t happen for a long time.
So I hope to feel nice for now here and get the courage to get into therapy once the pandemic is over.
I’ve joined seeking a community where I can find support. Used to post in ED forums a lot through a different nickname, but I feel out of place as I don’t have one anymore, even though they have subforums about abuse, they’re not very active as the other areas.
My anorexia started at 18 and lasted a year with a few smaller relapses. That disorder made me realize that I just wanted a small body because I wanted to be like a child again, as I had been sexually abused once at age 8 and multiple times throughout the ages of 13 to 15. Plus there was bullying, my parents constantly fighting with eachother, had a very low self-esteem... It was tough.
Realizing that I didn’t deserve to hurt myself bc of the past and the care of my boyfriend, helped me overcome my ED and I was ready to get into therapy but as we’re in lockdown this won’t happen for a long time.
So I hope to feel nice for now here and get the courage to get into therapy once the pandemic is over.
