Sufferer Dealing with constant re-triggers

[PhobicBranch]

Hi,

I have a few sources of my PTSD. They mainly revolve around people who abused me as a child to now or situations that created traumatizing havoc.

One is my stepfather (no longer in my life/zero contact), who abused me, my mom, our animals and my brother.

My bio-father and his... entire family. (i'm zero contact but they try to talk to people that are in my life.)

My Grandmother-mothers side. She's still in my immediate life and talks to me/my family daily and i hate it so much. I'd go no contact with her too, but me and my family are homeless and have limited choices on where we can live, since we all also have physical illnesses. She is so cruel and disconnected. She triggers my whole family and then we have a hard time regulating our emotions of continuing a routine properly.

Certain behaviors or actions that remind me of what these people do/have done, and i get anxious or feel like i might be in danger or endangering loved ones.


I'm trying to find a good place online where It's safe to vent and if i get triggered where I can go to get crisis-y/immediate advice or support when emotionally triggered.

 

[Deleted member 8714]

Welcome to the forum @PhobicBranch .

I've found lots of support here and encouragement to heal. One of the nice things about this site for me is not needing to give a warning before sharing my abuse. I belong to another site where that's necessary, and I've always felt as if I was being censored. I guess what I'm saying, as I ramble on this afternoon, is that here I've got freedom.

 

[PhobicBranch]

Welcome to the forum @PhobicBranch .

I've found lots of support here and encoura...

That's really nice. I'm glad to know that this is a encouraging, more open-esq place to deal with the struggles/triggers of PTSD. Thank you for replying.

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome!

Do you have local crisis phone lines you can call when in a crisis?

 

[PhobicBranch]

Do you have local crisis phone lines you can call when in a crisis?

I'm in the middle of forming a crisis plan with my family - so at this moment, i don't, actually.

 

[EveHarrington]

Can you look up crisis lines online?

I know my state has a pretty good crisis hotline.

 

[PhobicBranch]

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I can. I didn't think of local crisis lines, though. I've only heard of the nation-wide ones... that's a nice tip.

 

[Justmehere]

Welcome to the forums!

As a heads up, myPTSD isn’t a crisis service per se, but you can find peer support here and good recommendations on where to find crisis help like @EveHarrington recommended. Google “crisis text” and “crisis text” for other options for help.

Are you in treatment?

 

[PhobicBranch]

Welcome to the forums!

thank you.

I'm not in any specific treatment. I suppose my doctors don't see it as severe. I was getting therapy with my family for PTSD and other disorders up until a few years ago. Me and my family have been discussing getting/find a new therapist soon, though.

 

[littleoc]

I'm glad you are looking for support.

Welcome :hug:

I wish you the best in recovery -- at least well enough to get to a safer place in your life, so you can really heal and recover.

 

[PhobicBranch]

I have a start of a crisis plan now, and me/family are slowly getting ready to be in a new living environment.

 

[littleoc]

Congratulations!!!