Depressed And Thoughts About Feeling Like I Don't Wanna Be Here

[Sarah Thorpe]

For the last 6-7 months now i have felt so sad that every day feels like it becomes a struggle now, it feels like to cry is the only way to show my emotion. i haven't been to anyone to find out if i have depression but lately i have realized i should try and find out, i've had a bad past and everyday i cant help but think about it, i start feeling hopeless and feel like my life is never gonna get better, i've been living with my boyfriend for 3 months now but i feel like i cant commuincate with him as he wont understand. i have been having thoughts and feeling of feeling like ending my life the only thinb holding me back is my loved ones, i dont want my baby sister thinking giving up on life when your always upset and down and not to talk anyone is the answer, but lately i just feel like my life is over and want to be happy the way i used to, i dont know who to go to help and i dont even know who to talk to as i have serious trust issues and i blame myself for everything bad fhat happens, im confuses and im 17 years old and just need someone who understand.

 

[ladee]

Welcome! So glad you are here! Thank you for sharing how you are feeling. So many of us have felt like this or are feeling it now.
Can you check around with mental health agencies in your area?
Do you Have a crisis hot line you can call or suicide hot line? They are there to listen and possibly guide you toward getting help.
You sound like you are lost and sad but are willing to get some help.
Please try to find help first.
Things do get better when we have someone to talk to and guidance.
We all have trust issues so that is very normal.
That's so awesome to hear how you do not want your sister to think checking out is the answer.
We are here For you. Come on and share. Ask questions
You are not alone and very proud you are asking for help.
Come back and share all you need to. We are here For you.

 

[Sarah Thorpe]

Yeah it started mostly last year but started getting worse like 8 months ago that u did cut but i stopped myself before getting too far, and i dont think so.

 

[Zippy14]

Dear Sarah
I'm sorry you are suffering
You are doing the right thing and reaching out
Support is so important and I have found that therapy and mental health help lines and my family doctor have helped me more than anyone in guiding me towards recovery
Hospital programs have been helpful too
Learning and practising different therapies CBT, DBT, ACT have become a lifeline for me
My journey toward feeling better and recovery started at my doctors office
Life is hard
We are so fragile when things are unwell and emotional pain is like no other and getting support and help is the first step and builds from there into better days and the happiness and well being you deserve outshines the darkness and pain we experience
There is help out there and I'm glad you are willing to tap into the resources for help
Give yourself the gift of well being
You are worth it!
You are brave and you can do it
I believe in you

 

[Sarah Thorpe]

Your right, i've been trying so hard to be happy but every time i get the littlest happy feeling i feel like crying again. It's like nothings been working on me and have so much trust issues so dont know who to go to, i dont believe i have one of them near me so i try talk to people it feels like they just block me out.

 

[digger]

dont know who to go to help and i dont even know who to talk to as i have serious trust issues and i blame myself for everything bad fhat happens, im confuses and im 17 years old and just need someone who understand.

Are you either still in school or at college? If so, there will probably be a counsellor attached to your school/college that you could ask to see as a start.
Alternatively, your GP could be another place to start.

You can also make use of childline if you want to try something more confidential to begin with - 0800 1111 (you can use their service up to the age of 19)
Or the Samaritans is another option for someone to talk things through with - 116 123