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Blackjack, every single, solitary word that you have shared above, I totally relate to; your pain as well as my individual pain is freakin' palpable and real, and no one gets what I am going through except people like me that have been through a domestic war; and I lost the war; and I am still here, Blackjack. Have you ever heard the song by Mary J. Blige - The Living Proof. I relate fully to the words and emotion to Blige's song. Also, check out Survivor Psalm, it's on-line, and that too says a lot about me. Blackjack, you are NOT alone in your pain, agony, and at times desperation. You are NEVER alone, unless, Blackjack, you wall yourself off. I've attempted many, many times to leave this earth; and in '03, I stopped cutting, and taking Rx's to leave; decided to face demons head on, Blackjack. And now again am in therapy (E.M.D.R.) and I am here for you. Yes. I am here for you. I will try to be supportive and also nakedly honest about our communication. Peggyjade.
