Can someone please tell me which comes 1st, the chicken or the egg?
I'm so fed up of being told I'm depressed because I'm sad and upset by flashbacks and nightmares of the past. Yea I've suicidal thoughts, I cry when I'm reminded of my trauma.
But zonking me up on antidepressants is not treating the root issues. I'm told I have 'complex trauma'. I can't fit the ptsd diagnosis because apparently that's from one single isolated event that happened within 6 months of my issues resulting afterward. I also am apparently 'depressed' though not clinically or chronically so they say. But being sad about the past and how it affects me now means they must treat my 'depression'. I don't feel depressed. Am I not allowed be upset if I awake thinking I'm back in an attack? Would that even be considered normal?! I'm just so confused.
Back in my worst traumatic times, I had trauma like reactions and I wasn't coping - I became mute etc, attempted suicide, even as a child. Is it my fault I was dismissed by pediatric psychologists as 'attention-seeking' when that may have been a ptsd reaction itself well within the '6 months' quota allowed to develop ptsd? I have read that ptsd can be missed. One may then learn to cope and get on with life and it can go into remission and lay dormant until triggered later on by certain events. In my case - having a child brought it all back up and I couldn't escape what I'd buried and avoided, any longer
Just to stress, I do not hold any stigma toward depression as a diagnosis. I just feel like my team are completely distracting from what's actually going on with me.
I read that anger is usually a secondary emotion in response to a primary - such as sadness or guilt for example. Surely depressive symptoms are likely to be a secondary response for most people with a real genuine underlying issue/problem. I'm sick of them telling me 'you're just a bit depressed', because that in itself is all the more invalidating and depressing - no pun intended!
I'm so fed up of being told I'm depressed because I'm sad and upset by flashbacks and nightmares of the past. Yea I've suicidal thoughts, I cry when I'm reminded of my trauma.
But zonking me up on antidepressants is not treating the root issues. I'm told I have 'complex trauma'. I can't fit the ptsd diagnosis because apparently that's from one single isolated event that happened within 6 months of my issues resulting afterward. I also am apparently 'depressed' though not clinically or chronically so they say. But being sad about the past and how it affects me now means they must treat my 'depression'. I don't feel depressed. Am I not allowed be upset if I awake thinking I'm back in an attack? Would that even be considered normal?! I'm just so confused.
Back in my worst traumatic times, I had trauma like reactions and I wasn't coping - I became mute etc, attempted suicide, even as a child. Is it my fault I was dismissed by pediatric psychologists as 'attention-seeking' when that may have been a ptsd reaction itself well within the '6 months' quota allowed to develop ptsd? I have read that ptsd can be missed. One may then learn to cope and get on with life and it can go into remission and lay dormant until triggered later on by certain events. In my case - having a child brought it all back up and I couldn't escape what I'd buried and avoided, any longer
Just to stress, I do not hold any stigma toward depression as a diagnosis. I just feel like my team are completely distracting from what's actually going on with me.
I read that anger is usually a secondary emotion in response to a primary - such as sadness or guilt for example. Surely depressive symptoms are likely to be a secondary response for most people with a real genuine underlying issue/problem. I'm sick of them telling me 'you're just a bit depressed', because that in itself is all the more invalidating and depressing - no pun intended!
