This is the part where my jaw dropped.Days?
Something really toxic was going on in your home or your head to have a relationship like that with your mum. She gets an F for parenting.
But potentially days locked in an attic? That must have been overwhelmingly frightening to experience. Especially as a child.
Because this isn't just any attic, this was your home. This was the only place in the world that you had. Where you were meant to be safe. And you weren't. As a child...even if you could have escaped from the attic, you would have nowhere to go. And the whole time, the person who is supposed to love you unconditionally and make your world safer is the one who has done this to you.
That's hard to wrap my head around. The terror is one thing, but the helplessness and hopelessness of your situation is off the charts. Whatever preceded this? That time in the attic must have been a horrendous, life changing experience. I'm sorry that happened to you.