Detached and scared

[Deleted member 38906]

I don't know what's going on with me but I feel like im detached from my body, separated and not in control of it.

I had a good therapy session today.. We briefly talked about my dad, not too much to set me off thougg just a tiny bit.

I went about my day fine but when I wanted to go to bed in the evening, I started feeling paranoid about my T.

What if the next time I see him, he locks me up and tries to rape/murder me?

Then I thought about my dad some more and how I feel afraid of him and can't trust him.

Then my arm started twitching uncontrollably. What of I'm possessed by a demon and it wants to kill me using my own body? I felt like someone was in the room..turned the lights on and hid in the closet.

I don't know how to snap out of this. I feel younger than my actual age and afraid out of my mind. Afraid of falling asleep. What of something happens while I'm asleep? What if I have a nightmare and can't wake myself up. What is happening with me?!

Never felt like this before.. Anyone experience something like this before?

 

[Still Standing]

Hopefully since you started this thread, you have been able to get some sleep. If you are still feeling weird, have you tried some of your grounding technigues? Sorry that you were triggered. It is pretty tough having to walk through one of those events. I find if I can get out of the house and go for a drive, listening to music or an audio book helps me to calm down. Try to focus on something that brings you pleasure and is fun that draws your mind away from the memories. The mind and body reactions sabotage us and they are simply an unwanted aggravation.

 

[Justmehere]

Try safe strong sensations: holding ice, strong flavored candy, smelling essential oils (I like eucalyptus, lavender, or peppermint to ground), etc. It might help bring you out of this state and reduce the flight/flight/freeze response. I hope it all gets better soon. :hug:

 

[Deleted member 38906]

Try safe strong sensations: holding ice, strong flavored candy, smelling essential oils (I like euca...

thanks, i came out of it eventually but i'm just not sure what happened. my T is the nicest why would going to therapy cause me into a stress response?

 

[Justmehere]

Because it’s hard, it’s where we deal with the worst things that have happened in life, and even a light therapy session can mean stuff gets stirred up and the stress cup will overflow. I have had a stress response just walking past the building where I do therapy.