Here is a big hug!:)
Yes our situations are very close to each other. I too tried to educate people because I figured they would be more supportive if they knew about the ptsd. I was in therapy at the time. MY therapist said they did'nt know what they were doing.
They were not safe people. And I was too naive and gullible and desperately needy. I really needed a support group. So here I was being honest and sincere and trusting, and they had their own agenda too. Mine was a good one. Trying to make a support group. There's was toxic faith. I have a good book if you don't mind me telling you. It is Toxic Faith by Steve Arterburn. I have a couple of others too. It is spiritual abuse what you dealt with.
It is a real bad experience. I call it a branding experience. It still hurts. I like it here, it is very supportive. I do not feel I have to explain myself here. That is where I got into trouble with the church, I assumed they would get it and understand. But they were seeing things from a religous point of view which isn't very spiritual.
It is called legalism. It isn't what God is all about. In fact it is the very worst thing people can do to each other. It places so much on the victim of ptsd. When a normal for a ptsd survivor occurance happens they saw it with the eyes of their burdensome religon. I am a spiritual person. But they are religous. I am still hurting from it. I am so very sorry you went through that experiece with those people.
You were brave and couragous trying to educate them. I am sorry they were not deserving of your trust. YOu are ok with what they put you through. I am glad they are not doing it to you anymore. It will take a long time to heal from this one. It is such a betrayal of trust. YOu went to a supposed safe place with supposed safe people and got the bejeesus knocked out of you. They really layed a buch of crap on you I hope you are feeling alittle better by now. Take care and be well.
