Disassociation

[AngelKeeperJ]

So, I am gathering that it is a "scary" state of mind? Not an escape?

 

[7Cs]

wouldn't dissociating kind of be an "escape" from my mental state

I'm struggling with how you define disassociation. How does it show up in your life? When do you disassociate?

A lot of the time I think my dissociation is a kind of escape from reality. Sometimes in a good way and others a bad way. There are times when it's a really comfortable " warm" disconnection from intense emotions. Other times there is a complete emptiness although I do feel extremely uncomfortable with it. The discomfort is the only thing I feel and it's almost physical... I think I hate this one the most. I have definitely experience the feeling of being in a bubble, floating though not above myself sort of autopilot, and also just a sense of that things aren't right... they look weird and sometimes sound weird. Sometimes my mind feels really slow like I just lost 50 IQ points. Then there is when I don't seem like me; actions, thoughts, words, etc.