Dissasociation "periods"?

[WishfulThinking123]

I am new to this forum and I am just now beginning to work through emotional numbness and disassociation which has probably been occurring for years without me even realizing it. Anyways, it has been years since my trauma and I am just now developing PTSD (diagnosed recently). For the last few weeks my weeks have disturbingly been like this: After therapy for half of the week I become completely emotionally numb and feel very euphoric, invincible, risky, etc... and no one can hurt me physically or emotionally. I also feel like I have no problems during this period and I have no emotions connected to any of my trauma. However, then comes a huge crash in which I feel unbearable anxiety and depression and feel all of my trauma(very sudden impact), then the cycle repeats itself all over again the following week. I think the problem is I have spent at least the last 3 years if not way more than that being emotionally numb/disassociating. My T says this is my mind's way of fighting against the disassociation...so I guess for the first time in many years I am trying not to disassociate? I don't know this is so confusing and honestly I feel like I am going a little crazy sometimes. Has anyone else experienced these dissociative periods like this?

 

[Wyska]

YES I am afraid to talk about it because I don't want to be wrongfully diagnosed with Bi-polar disorder or something. I often have periods of anxiety where I'm always edgey and I feel clamy and cold even when it's warm in the room. In contrast I get really hot when I have my 'high' period. Does your body change temperature also with this?

 

[WishfulThinking123]

I am glad I am not alone and yes it does feel like I have weekly bipolar lol! I have not noticed a change in body temperature but, then again I don't know if I have really paid much attention to it anyways... hmm as of yesterday I started coming down from my "high" period however, I am still emotionally numb and not depressed/anxiety yet....usually hits me around Sat. (it is very cyclic which makes it even more odd...)

 

[Nat P]

I am new to this forum and I am just now beginning to work through emotional numbness and di...

Very normal. All the very abnormal stuff is just par for the course. You are probably discussing and processing things that have been stuffed and ignored and have not gone away no matter that it happened years ago, yoir mind is reprocessing and reexperiencing an unpleasant event that can trigger a wide range of psychological and physical reactions that as much as we would rather avoid sometimes these dragons must be slain so we may move on past the fear. I hope this helps.

 

[JEANNIE]

I am new to this forum and I am just now beginning to work through emotional numbness and di...

Yes!