Dissociation 101

[Sethe]

Yay! I'm part of the club.

I think I've dissociated this entire week. I don't know where it went and I can't entirely recall how I felt.

 

[justwannabeme]

I'm learning how much dissociation has Impoverished my life and...a whole new deep ravine of grief has opened up.

I think this may have contributed somewhat to my total melt down on wednesday night, that and my freakin' throid is low again arrrg, no dairy, no soy, no msg, no booze, no smokes, no sleep, no social skills, lots of pain ,and all this PTSD can I pick whats behind door #3 please. and that was before I had to beg my boss to have friday off, and it was the friday off from hell. I think it's time for bed, well, at least it's time for the nite dance. My ex used to tell people I was like sleeping with "a fish floundering on the deck of a fishin' boat" he's from Newfoundland...

 

[blueangel371115]

aww (((justwannabeme)))

 

[justwannabeme]

Thanks blueangel, means a lot. What a pity pot party. Sleep, such as it was, and sunlight make for a better Sunday morning. Trying again for a better today because yesterday is done, yeah.

 

[The Albatross]

I shared about this on another thread... but made gains with sacrocranial therapy and learned from the practioner how to self check myself and put myself back in my body. Sounds pretty wild and it took a while, a few sessions, but I could actually "feel" my "self" just above my body about two inches above my body. During the session where I went back in, I could feel a "thunk" sort of like the vibration you get when an old car shifts gears (hard to describe, best I can do). It took a few more sessions to feel my arms and legs, and recenter, balance myself "in there".

Just throwing it out there, because it is something that helped me.

 

[The Albatross]

I went there because my eyes weren't tracking and I was looking for an alternative method to treat ADD/ADHD in conjunction with free flow consciousness therapy with a psychologist to teach me how to "slow down the thoughts"... which were like fireworks going off in my brain after I got sober. Though I now know that ADD/ADHD type behavior was just another symptom of the PTSD... it was helpful.

 

[The Albatross]

I wasn't ever scared ... just puzzled when I'd have an event. I'm pretty stoic about this part of myself, more of an "it is what it is", what am I going to do about it? A process and though pretty outside the norm, a necessary one to learn how to live successfully and reintegrate and feel a connectedness to the world and people who I am in relationship with.

 

[blueangel371115]

Thanks blueangel, means a lot. What a pity pot party. Sleep, such as it was, and sunlight make for a better Sunday morning. Trying again for a better today because yesterday is done, yeah.

you are much welcome, you guys are all like family to my. I try to help when I can. Plus your tips and comments have helped me greatly.

I went there because my eyes weren't tracking and I was looking for an alternative method to treat ADD/ADHD in conjunction with free flow consciousness therapy with a psychologist to teach me how to "slow down the thoughts"... which were like fireworks going off in my brain after I got sober. Though I now know that ADD/ADHD type behavior was just another symptom of the PTSD... it was helpful.

That's how I feel often. I miss my meds. I'm having the urges to drink again to curtail it.

 

[The Albatross]

No kidding, I learned how to slow down the thoughts (most of the time) and it helped. I guess what I actually liked about that time was his position (the Psychologist) was, it's not up to the world to adapt to me, it's up to me to learn how to cope in the world. I did a year and a half with him about three years ago now, and it has stuck.

 

[BloomInWinter]

The dissociation happens far less now. Mindfulness, CBT, and DBT have greatly increased my tolerance level for anxiety & painful memories.

Whew. Never thought it would be so much better.

 

[crazytrain]

I have had a lot of years with dissociation and, like a lot of you, never realized it until recently. I still do it, and quite often, but I am becoming more aware of it. I can now see some signs that I couldn't before. Sometimes I will email my wife and not even remember doing so, or a friend. I will have conversations and later not be able to tell you 10% of what was talked about. So, sort of a "checking out" of my brain for a while is how I look at it. Most often it has an emotional component to it, which is one of my biggest triggers. I still have a hard time dealing with intense emotions. I don't expect to run out of things to talk about with my therapist any time soon!

CT

 

[BloomInWinter]

It has gotten much better, though I still do it.