Dissociation and disconnect

[Hopemeanslife]

I have started to feel like the people around me are disappearing, sometimes I’m in a room with people and although they aren’t actively engaging in convo with me, I start to zone out so bad that they don’t even seem as if they’re next to me anymore. Then I attempt to start to talk to myself and I’m like woah, there is people here, it’s actually super bizarre why this is happening, it’s been like this pretty bad for several weeks. Not sure what happened and how I got here really, but as each day goes by my dissociation and the disconnection from the world is so apparently I can’t block it out anymore. I’m waiting for an appointment with mental health but seems like I’m forever having to chase them up

 

[BuildingSelf24]

I'm not a therapist but I recognized that the times I would dissociate the most was when I had a lot of feelings that I was either actively trying to repress or that were bubbling under the surface. I just share my experience since it could be something to bring up with your therapist. Don't know what kind of trauma you've had but maybe there are feelings around it that you haven't fully processed yet?

 

[thursday]

I hope you have seen your T in the mean time. There isn't a special topic called dissociation on this forum for nothing. There are few people on here who don't do this or have lost the ability. The latter includes me. Doing this I kept feelings and pain full memories from surfacing . After time it became a second nature. I felt like being outside a glass bowl where everyone else lived. I saw them but there was no connection. I made up an different person whose self esteem was helping me. For decades I believed I was an exception.
You're not alone and you're not going mad.

 

[arfie]

empathy, hope. been there and? ? ? weirdus maximus. . . my last heavy-duty round was way back in the last millennium, but the lighter rounds still happen often enough to keep me worrying the possibility that it could happen again. i carried mine all the way to catatonic dissociation and coming back was no picnic. i don't ever want to go **there** again.

my most recent rounds started in 2019 when i buried my youngest son and inherited his 3 young orphans, then aged 6, 3 and 8mos. covid derailed my efforts to engage a pro in the process, but i have been working closely with some of my most trusted peer supporters to stay mindful of the psychotic side effects. i have attempted to resume the search for pro help, but, as you mentioned, it seems like i am forever trying to chase them up and my 70 year old bones aren't enjoying the chase. the peer support has been priceless.