Dissociation from emdr

[digger]

Evo - this might be worth looking at Comprehensive Q&a With Francine Shapiro, Inventor Of Emdr

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

there is a ton of info out there even videos showing it being done. just google "EMDR" and a lot of links will be there.

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

I reached my limit with EMDR (only 4 sessions so far), the intensity and volume of memories and thoughts were beginning to overwhelm me and make my thinking harmful. So my Emdr has been paused for now.

My past tendency when overwhelmed like this is to self harm, while that has not happened. I was reaching the point where I was heading for a crisis.

The disassociation has gotten so bad I often have to have someone with me when I drive to keep me forward in the moment so I don't disassociate while driving.

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

I feel like I am going crazy, the images in my head won't go away, and the one thing that broke me back then is breaking me all over again. Having thoughts I should not be having, I am beginning to think things will never change, and I will always be haunted by this stuff. Life is too much trouble for the few rewards it offers. I am not sure how I feel about living right now, I am on the edge. I don't even feel safe asking for help anymore, I can't really trust anybody.

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

I need some feedback on this, now that the EMDR has been paused because it's overwhelming me, I am thinking of not continuing the EMDR. I am coming to the conclusion that my trauma is too much and intense to not overwhelm me. CBT is my fallback since it is also part of EMDR. The images and thoughts that this had brought to the present, have brought me to the point of needing intervention.