DID Dissociative identity disorder and voices

[circe47]

JEK-
Thanks for the input. I don't see that therapist anymore due to moving away. I can't seem to find a therapist for talking things out even though I'm supposed to have the best insurance i.e. Medicare. She was the first therapist who danced around the subject of me having DID. I don't think she wanted to rush me, but, I do remember vividly a time in her office when everything went sort of blurry, like snow on a television set? I believe manifested a switch. I don't remember the content of the conversation, just vaguely hearing her say "I touched a nerve," then wham….I was back inside myself. I was nauseous and sort of photo-sensitive afterwards for quite some time. I think for me I have achieved a level of co-conciousness. I am aware, but, have no control of myself during these experiences. This is where I get a lot of "you said this, did this, promised this"…..yet have no recollection of it the next day.

 

[BlueOrange]

I have not been issued a diagnosis of DID.

Well, that bit is no longer accurate ;)

I have a very good GP, who has noticed that I'm not being medicated, and wanted to make sure that everything that could be done was being done. Asked me for a report from my psychiatrist that explains why I haven't been mediated, so I passed on the request last week. This week, he told me he had sent the report, and briefly described what he had said. "I find that my patients with dissociative identity disorder are not helped by medication," he said. And then we had a brief chat about how he'd never used those words in that sequence before.

So, yeah. Given that I was dissociating from all kinds of things when we met, it's very hard to predict how I would have responded to that diagnosis. Now, I'm a lot more stable.

We talked a little bit about this forum and this thread. Agreed that finding ways to cooperate between the bits of one's self is the right basic strategy. My homework for the next week is to make the dialogue between two of my bits more explicit. (Right now, these bits don't talk to each other, they just interact in ways that are hard for me to understand. If I get them talking, then there's likely a stronger basis for getting them to cooperate effectively.

 

[circe47]

I just found out that I had transferred all of my meds from one pharmacy to the other and had no recall of doing so. I was without my perphenazine for almost a month. Here's what happened:rolleyes:

I called on the 5th of September to get a refill for perphenazine because for some strange reason, I was out of only THAT medication. The pharmacist said that insurance denied it because I had already gotten it filled on August 25th. I'm like "how can that be? I have ALL of my other meds, but this one." Aaaaand if I had gotten it filled only ten days earlier, I should still have like 20 pills left. It didn't make any sense. Had I eaten 20 pills and not known about it?:wideeyed: So, pissed at the pharmacy and insurance, I said to myself "screw it" and waited until the 25th of September for the "anger" pills.

When everything was ready to be filled on September 25th, I went to my third pharmacy in three months. Guess what…….when I told the new pharmacy that I was mad and had been out of the perphenazine for almost a month, they said….."well, we filled it on the 25th because you came in a while back and transferred to us." Apparently "someone" inside loves practical jokes or something :laugh::laugh:and it is very, very frustrating:facepalm::banghead: