Dissociative Spells And Omg, Someone Else Is Driving!

[Kas_Can_Fly]

In fact, letting a child drive is a felony

:D Luckily she is over 20 (not sure by how much though)! Which is over the legal age to drive, she just hasn't learned as much as I have. The youngest part of me is protected by too many parts (and forcibly held back by one) to be able to come forward to any real degree - certainly enough to take full control - though she did have me humming the other day. Most of the other young parts are incapable of much/anything and only come forward when I can no longer cope.

And so the dilemma continues, I will ask my pdoc about this, if there is any way I can avoid giving it up I would like that. I just need to find a way of getting this across to her - rebellion is something I'm struggling with at the moment from her and another aged 19. Hmmmmm. Maybe I should have never had my hair cut into a (faux) mohawk, they're all getting funny ideas!

Thanks again

 

[Pencil]

Wear pearls - it should keep them properly behaved and inhibited :)

 

[Kas_Can_Fly]

My page is double post prone :eek::confused:. Yeah by the time I can afford pearls they'd better be behaving more appropriately!

 

[Pencil]

My page is double post prone

So is mine.

 

[Powder]

Thank you both for sharing, AJ and Pencil.

I have only read about this condition. I believe in the US it is under way to be added to the DSM (well, some want it to be, and surely, some do not) as DESNOS. Dissorders of Extreme Stress Not Otherwise Specified. This is what used to be called C-PTSD or complex, childhood/long-term trauma PTSD.

Like you, I tend to "lose time" during which parts of me argue over who gets control. I tend to barely function, or fade out. I also lose physical power. This happened yesterday.

Like you, I was having a good, sunshiny, Sunday. I was on the internet (Facebook is a trigger) and for some reason, it got me. I was losing focus and physical power and control. I got a dull headache, and had to lie down. It became clear that my body was way too large for my being, which felt like it was in an adult suit that was too heavy and which it could not control well.

I get very cold when this happens, and I tend to go into shock. So I have to heat my body up with blankets or a hot bath, sometimes with my huge robe on in the hot bath. Jeez.

Anyway, I located this girl. I was able to "talk" with her. I asked her her age. She said she was six and in kindergarten, all proud. I countered with "You feel pretty small. Are you sure you are 6?" She replied, "like to say I'm six and in kindergarten because it makes me feel bigger and stronger." I saw she was hiding (and so was I under the covers). I asked her what she was hiding from, and she didn't know. She's just a part that hides, and has been, for 30 years.

My husband told me that the trauma is hidden from the children, because the protector parts don't want the children to know what happened to them. That's why she was unaware of what she was hiding from. I am aware of a personality that "knows" and other aspects that "seek" while the "knower" will not share what she knows.

Integration is what therapy used to aim for to resolve this; however, I have read that just having the parts get closer and dialogue respectfully is enough to function better.

What do you think? Is there a therapy for this with the PTSD?

Thank you, Muse

 

[Kas_Can_Fly]

I'm sorry to hear you had a rough time the other day but it's good to open up the communication between the parts I think. The more you are accepting of them and talk with them, the more everyone is happy and is able to function as a team. That's all we want - to be a team.

I have one child who's nine who's innocent and unaware of the trauma and another one who's younger maybe 5/6 I don't really know, she has told me, she has a grim understanding of all of it - she's a scary little girl and very dark, very angry and self-destructive. Both of them need a fair amount of reassurance but both in very different ways. We've just made a bed on the floor and are happier here.

I think therapy similar to that for Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) or Dissociative Disorder Not Otherwise Specified Subtype 1 (DDNOS-1), involves integration and trauma therapy and this would probably work well. But I think for all of us at least, just talking in a structured and helpful way will help. I don't really know. Personally, I just want some help and I've been waiting for so long already I don't care about seeing a specialist, just anyone who will listen.

I get suddenly chilled and very ill feeling and can't warm up no matter how many blankets/ hot water bottles I have. I don't know if that's caused by them or us or something else entirely - I put it down to anxiety, stress and coming flashbacks more than them, but there's so much I don't know.

From what I've gathered, some people do and some people don't want to integrate but that depends on how well they function together. I don't know what I want, I love some of these parts and they do help me even now, who am I to deny them their existence, but if they wanted to return to me, then that would be ok too.

I'm very uneducated on all of this and haven't had any therapy for anything. So if I have said something that is not right or that has upset you, you shouldn't be upset because I might be wrong. But I don't think so. I hope you feel more at ease.

 

[Kas_Can_Fly]

Another form of healing is Structural Dissociation, this is the break down of barriers between the parts and enables co-operation, reduces differences and amnesia etc.