Distraction

[Bristol]

all alone today, anxiety is eating me alive and I'm trying to stop myself from cutting, I have cleaned the house, watched the rugby and the usual but I'm running out of options and feeling so low and lonely right now. I know all the alternatives I'm not sure that's what I'm looking for but it's been something I have done since I was small child so I think at this point it is just like an old friend, a habit maybe I'm not sure I have another 5 hours until my hubby comes home from work which seems like a massive amount of empty time, I don't have any close friends I can call because no one knows this side of me. I'm not even sure why I'm posting this if I am honest but it's kept me busy for a bit I suppose, just practising reaching out and being honest with people, I'm struggling today

 

[ladee]

And you are heard. Doing what you know to do to keep disracted..sometimes that's all we have. And the will to get better.
You are heard and valued taking the risk
Gentle hugs if You accept.

 

[Bristol]

And you are heard. Doing what you know to do to keep disracted..sometimes that's all we have. And the wil...

Thank you @ladee, I'll take all the hugs I can get today :hug:

 

[ladee]

Got buckets full...they are on the way.
Hang in here sweetie..you can do this..if not this time..then next time. Not saying I'm ok with you harming yourself, but am saying I understand.

 

[Bristol]

I gave in in the end but I managed all day so that's something, maybe tomorrow things will feel better

 

[ladee]

Maybe try posting long before you get to the point of self harm.
We will see how we can help you to stay focused and possibly try something else.
Hugs.

 

[Bristol]

Thank you, this whole asking for help and being honest about this stuff is really new to me, ill get the hang of it eventually :)

 

[ladee]

You're doing great!. It gets easier.